Bryan's Conversation With God

0:03 From the time that they pronounced me that was a good 45 minutes They cut my clothes and then they paddled my heart my heart stopped and I could see people screaming and crying But I didn't realize that was actually my physical body because I was somewhere else The only thing that I could feel if you can imagine Absolute love and peace there wasn't anything else to be felt. I was greeted by people I'd known in the past I'm back home again. Incredibly safe and felt at home. Welcome, welcome to Round Trip Death, everybody. We are super happy to have Brian Duzak with us today. Brian, good morning. Hello, sir. Hello, everybody. It's good to see you again. Thank you for reaching out to the show. I can't wait to hear all the details of your story after hearing the idea. of what it is in our pre -interview the other day. But before we jump right into it, and we're going to be there really quick.

1:06 Brian, would you just take one minute and tell us a little bit about you so we can get to know you? Well, I'm 51 now. I live in Texas. I actually grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. Fairly average life, nothing too extreme. My dad actually pretty much raised me from about two years old up until I was seven, eight, and he got remarried. I like to kind of brag about my stepmom a lot. I feel like I chose her in a way. I introduced her to my dad and six months later they were engaged and a year later they got married. She was a very spiritual woman, the yoga type, the meditator type, open to A Course in Miracles, if you remember that old thing. Introduced me to the law of attraction when I was in my 20s, I believe, or maybe 30s.

1:54 But she was very well -rounded. She was open to a lot of things, introduced me to a lot of things. On my real mom's side, she's part Native American. So I was very curious about those types of things, you know, medicine and healing and such. And never participated in yoga, a little bit tried to do meditation. But one thing that struck out to me in seventh and eighth grade, I was checking out books about astral projection and actually achieved astral projection in eighth grade. I had a little bit of experience with it, but kind of let it go in my 20s. Got stuck in corporate America, working a full -time job. I was working for a veteran -owned t -shirt company where I was at my desk 14 hours a day and kind of lost my way physically. I was a wrestler when I was younger, but I had gained a lot of weight.

2:43 I got up to 250 -ish when I was wrestling at 160 -ish. It was just, you know, pizza, fast food, Mountain Dew, Red Bull. Those are my four main food groups. And that, by the way, is where you're already leading right up to your NDE and I appreciate that. And so go ahead and take us down that road because people are going to hear about you having a stroke at a young age. You were what, 43 at that time? Yes, sir. Okay, go ahead and get there. I had actually for a few weeks had a pain in my left calf and had no idea that it was a blood clot building up. I thought I had shin splints. I was limping around the office and people are just like, dude, what's wrong with you? I'm like, I don't know. I actually stopped by a clinic. At one point he gave me some sort of a muscle relaxer medication I'd taken for a couple of weeks. Wasn't helping at all. Come to find out. I was building up blood clots in my system from just eating a huge, fatty, sugary diet. I just wasn't really taking care of myself. I thought of myself as healthy. I tried to eat right for the most part, but looking back, yeah, it was pretty disgusting. Just, you know, fast food pizza, Mountain Dew Red Bull.

3:59 Again, a lot of coffee as well, sugary coffee. I made it home and I believe that was July 8th, if I'm not mistaken. Ordered another pizza. And I was about halfway through it, chugging a two liter of soda. Just something was terribly wrong. I believe that your pancreas that I had the feeling under my right ribs was kind of a burning sensation. And it was just getting stronger. I couldn't feel like my heartbeat in that area. You know, my wife's like, ah, you know, take some Pepto. You'll be all right. You know, try going to the washroom that wasn't fixing anything. And then the tunnel vision set in and I couldn't catch my breath. It was just a very strange feeling I'd never felt before. The tunnel vision started kind of like wide scope, but was slowly narrowing in to where I could only see kind of like a stars or static around this certain area. And I really had the focus to see. So I was panicking. Her and I were pretty much fighting at the time, but I'm like, hey, can you just take me to the hospital? Oh, you don't need the hospital. You'll be fine, you know? But eventually I... guess I coaxed her into taking me and we made it there.

5:10 She literally dropped me off at the emergency room entrance and I stepped out of the car, closed the door and she peeled out of there mad at me because I was inconveniencing her. Anyways, that relationship is over by the way. But I call it walking the longest mile because it might have been only 20 or 30 steps but it took everything in me to Focus my energy in that direction just right foot left foot right foot left foot and the tunnel vision I say maybe got to about as big as a paper towel roll. I could only see Right in front of me. I made it through those sliding automatic doors made it about seven more steps and I looked to my left and there's people filling out paperwork and There was just no way I couldn't function. I feel like you know if my energy bar went from 100 to zero here I was at like three percent left there wasn't much left in me you know by the grace of god I looked to my right and there was a male orderly I guess you would call her a nurse uh pushing a gurnee about to turn down another hall and we made eye contact and I was trying to say like help me I'm not sure what came out of my mouth but it definitely wasn't that and In that moment, I just remember my hand, my arm just slinking and falling to the floor from pure weakness, but I also saw the back of my head on the way down and I didn't

6:41 feel the impact of touching the floor. But when I saw the back of my head, you don't normally see the back of your head unless you're using a couple of mirrors. So right away I realized like, wait, what? What? Wait, hold on a second. Where are my arms? I'm on the floor. Where? Wait, what? Yeah, so you're so you're out of your body already observing everything. There was this strange like ripping noise compared to two pieces of Velcro being pulled apart slowly just to and then there was kind of a pop feeling. That was it. Yeah, all in that moment while I'm watching the back of my head. It's just I'm literally seeing I don't want to say inside my head, but yeah, it was just kind of like black vision at first. And then boom, there's the back of my head and it fell to the floor and yeah, heard the ripping noise. And like I said earlier, I had been astral before. So my first reaction was like, wait a minute, I'm astral right now.

7:35 And I looked down and normally there's like type of a cord coming from like your sternum area of your light body to the sternum of your actual body. And it wasn't there. And in that few seconds, I just really realized like, oh my gosh, I'm dead. Like panic attack, panic attack, like danger Will Robinson. There's a problem going on right now. It's kind of strange and it's really hard to explain when you're separate from your body, you're not limited to the, you know, the five senses or six senses. Some people would say, but I guess I immediately it's from a completely different perspective. Like I understood in that moment, like, oh, this is like my over soul.

8:21 This is the higher me. This is the bigger me. This is the one that's been here for eons and will be here for many eons. Even though the Brian body is only going to be here for a give or take, who knows, 60, 70 years hopefully. But it was just a very strange feeling. I immediately like had this knowing. And the first thing that popped through my head was I didn't finish my mission and I need to get back in my body. Although I still can't recall my mission fully, I immediately knew like, oh gosh, oh gosh, I didn't finish my mission. I didn't do what I was supposed to do here. I even thought like God's going to be upset with me as if I had made a promise to do something while I'm here as Brian. Very awkward feeling to know that you have a mission, but not to know exactly what your mission is. I don't know what that is, why we can't remember these things. since talked to other people and they're like, yeah, I know I have a mission too, but I don't fully understand it either. I don't know why they have this. I would love to meet somebody that could like try to do hypnotization. So I can remember these things, but still haven't had success with that yet. Anyways, if you've ever had an adrenaline rush or a panic attack, I was having one, but I was having one as a body.

9:35 I mean, as a soul, not a body. Like I could literally feel the pulsating, the freaking out was happening and just like, Oh my God, Oh my God, what do I do? I'm watching it in these few seconds. You know, they noticed I fell down. Obviously the orderly comes towards me and was asking for help from another nurse. They ended up picking me up, putting me on the gurney. And I'm kind of here watching this. I remember a feeling of looking at the gurney itself, the actual steel bars with the pads on them. that they push you with and everything that I looked at much like what I've done in astral projection is you could literally feel the the molecular density of everything that you look at and you have 360 vision so I'm turning my head right now but you don't have to there are no physical attributes you you think to the left you're looking to the left you think to the right you're looking to the right and I remember when i'm looking at this gurney feeling the coolness iron or whatever metal it was i could feel its molecular structure i can't really explain that other than kind of like um have you ever looked at battery a nine volt battery of course not i would never do something like that as kids i know we tried that no we do we do it to test and see if they still have a charge it was just kind of like that feeling like you can Totally feel it inside you when you're looking at something you can feel its structure the second

11:08 nurse that walked up I remember looking at her smock and just feeling the Again, the density of the threads and like what it was made of in every way shape or form It's very hard to try to explain that when you're in your normal physical body, but outside of it I can only imagine like what the ghosts are in between spirits are feeling as far as Going through something like you could feel what the dry walls made over the stuffing inside it. You know, it's a very strange feeling. It's kind of hard to explain. But yeah, the molecular structure is the only way really I could say that. But again, I watched them kind of pick me up, put me on the cart, cart me off. I'm seeing other people in the room are panicking. I remember hearing Although I don't have ears, but I could hear like, Oh, I hope that guy is going to be okay. And another one's like, Oh geez, that guy just totally fell on his face. And like, I could hear other people's thoughts in a way during that panic attack. Again, I didn't finish my mission. I was freaking out. And then suddenly this, um, Just like kind of like a glow is happening.

12:16 It's really increasing It's getting very bright and I kind of glance over to my right and There is an entity looking right at me I compared to like if you're at a bar and you see an old friend and you tap him on the shoulder and he turns around and it's like hey But I look over in this entities like And I'm looking at it, I compared it to two things, like the glowing aliens from the movie Cocoon, if you remember that movie. Yeah, that's an old one. Yeah. And then also there's a lot of colors and light going on, although it's mainly this golden white there. I can see, like if you stare at a TV screen or a monitor very closely, you see the little RGB lines in there. When you look at it, it's mainly golden white. but there are little colors within kind of like prisms of light inside it. I want to say it was male although there was nothing you know no chest or anything but I looked right at it and I knew immediately that I was looking at God it it had an angelic feel but it was more than that and this kind of like a light fog was coming for emanating from it and coming over to me and kind of surrounded me and Immediately, I just felt calm. I felt peace the whole panic attack subsided. Thank God because that was a very scary situation I'm just like looking at it and it's kind of like yeah, you have any questions

13:49 for him? Like are you God? You know, I knew inside my head or well my spirit but I knew it but I just had to ask to verify and he's looking at me like yeah most of the time don't you recognize me you know me it kind of dawned on me that that thought that I had earlier about being a soul you know for all time like your soul your consciousness is energy which never dissipates at least in our universe and it was just like dawning on me like I've been here forever different entities I'll be here for a long time as different entities but this guy right here knows me in between all the above since the beginning and up until if there ever is an end and it just knows me and I just felt that like hey you're like an old friend that I don't recognize unfortunately as Brian in my body but right now like hey like holy cow man like I'm sorry I didn't finish my mission what do I do I need to get back in my body ASAP and do what I came down to do again I'm panicking and and he's just like calm down everything will be fine you have some time let's go for a walk and chat I can tell you have a lot of questions you know you don't really say no to God so it's just like yeah okay kind of like mosey with me i don't remember like grabbing his hand but i remember being right next to him i didn't see a tunnel of light i didn't have a life review i'm kind of mad about that because

15:19 i don't remember if i have one or not i don't think i did but i do remember going into a room type thing if you've ever seen the matrix by chance where neo says we need guns and then all of a sudden they're in that like golden room There were no guns with God, but I was definitely in this golden type room with him. I don't remember seeing boundaries, but you could feel there is one, although it's all light. You can't see walls. It's hard to explain that too. Immediately. I'm just like, Hey, I need to get back in my body. I didn't finish my mission. Like I need to go back. I didn't really like ask. Can I go back to my body? I guess it's the sales guy in me.

16:00 I was just like, what do I have to do when I get back in my body? And I wasn't asking. I wasn't really thrown a choice out there. It was like, maybe I even knew that I would be let back to my body. But I remember when I first asked that question, like I was concerned obviously about my health. I didn't want to jump back in and then just die again because my heart wasn't working right. Or there's a stroke happening. I needed to know what I needed to do to fix my body. And literally the second I asked that, I don't really love to use the word download, but there was a message sent to my core of my being and immediately message received. It's definitely telepathic because I don't have ears to hear. And I remember when it came to me, it wasn't in the words in English, but somehow the message that was sent was interpreted by my by my soul because that's the language I speak. I feel like if I was Greek or Italian or Hindu for that matter, it would have been interpreted in the language that you perceive at the time or that you speak at that time. And the first thing that came was water, aspirin, and citrus peels, emphasis on peels.

17:13 Not something I would normally think about, but okay, noted. Now I'm thinking, okay, so if that's going to help me when I get back, like what do I need to do to kind of maintain? I realized that I needed to lose weight, clear my arteries, you know, fix my body because I've done a lot of damage over the last 10 years or so gained a lot of weight. And just immediately there was a cycle of words that at the time I just didn't know fully. I'd heard of some of the things that popped in, but like I remember intermittent fasting, moringa seeds, sea moss. a lot of different things, parasite cleanses, things of that nature, stop eating dairy, cut down on carbs, literally, or bread even. And just all these little like diet supplement kind of information was coming into me. And it was a pretty long list. I'm like, okay, like noted, okay. Now, wow, okay. If I ask questions, they're immediately answered.

18:08 And in that moment, I just kind of realized like, I don't know if you've ever thought if you sat down with Jesus or God, What would you ask them? There's a long list of questions, right? I'm a guy with a million questions. So you know. I could keep him busy for years asking my questions. And I'm about to ask you a million questions too, but go ahead and finish what happened. While my brain's thinking of things to say, I had to just ask. I was like, you know, again, are you God? And he's like, yeah, like you don't recognize me. Yes. Most of the time. Yeah, I'm God. In that moment, I feel this presence of just the love, the peace, the overwhelming calmness. I compare that whole feeling to like, you know, laying in your grandmother's bosom as she reads you your favorite bedtime story. You know, you're petting a puppy, you're eating a warm oatmeal cookie, drinking some milk right by like a fireplace.

19:06 It was just all these things of like love, calmness, security, peace, something I haven't felt in this lifetime. And I do kind of miss it, to be honest. As I'm feeling that, I even asked, I'm just like, but there's something more here. Like I even asked, like, are you Jesus too? Just as plain as day as we're having a conversation with a nice gentleman, he's like, yeah, sometimes nonchalantly. Yeah, sometimes I'm Jesus too. You know, me personally, I've been ominous for about 20 years, which is kind of open to all the beliefs, looked and researched into, you know, some of them. And I asked next, I'm like, you know, I feel this, this jovialness about you, this happiness, this like kind love thing.

19:51 But I even said like, are you Buddha too? And immediately his face went to that meek little smile that you see in most images of Buddha and just gave me a, wait, you're Buddha too? Wow, that's awesome. And then something kind of hard to explain. I just, this feeling of something ancient, this feeling of time and wisdom. And for whatever reason, I thought of Krishna, which is more of like a Hindu deity god. And I even asked him then, I'm like, are you also Krishna? And no BS, my friend. He turned blue. He had that little crown and gave me some sort of, I can't remember the hand drive signal, almost like a break dancing or the Egyptian move, but gave me one of those. just to confirm like, yes, I'm also Krishna. And that kind of took me back, like, holy crap, like, you're all the above.

20:47 Like, I get it now. That's why I'm ominous. You're not just that one thing that, you know, some beliefs would say, this is the only God. You're all seeing, all knowing omnipresent. You're all the above. And these are just different messengers of you to different continents, different languages, to different people. It all just clicked in my head. that makes perfect sense now. It kind of verified some feelings that I had about God in the first place. This episode is brought to you by Pocket Hose, the world's number one expandable hose. I live on a very large lot with lawn, fruit trees, vegetable garden, flowers, all the things, and that means lots of long heavy hoses to haul around to different areas. and it's so frustrating when those hoses kink have to be wound up or when they just wear out. This summer is going to be different. I just got one of the brand new pocket hose copperheads with pocket pivot, tried it Saturday, and my first impression is wow, just plain old wow. No kinks, no heavy lifting, no big hoses to wind up, and it's backed with a 10 -year warranty. This will be used every single day this summer. Now it's time to share the love with a deal for you. For a limited time, my listeners can get a free pocket pivot and their 10 pattern sprayer with the purchase of any size copper hose. Just text roundtrip to

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23:10 And my bandwidth was increasing. I would call that my... subconscious now what it had like kind of flipped over to where I have a secondary thought to where I remembered there's something more here on the other side on the spirit world so to speak to where I remembered I'm like you know what there's something more I just remembered I need to go up and I remembered like the calm that I was feeling was more of like a own very peaceful very mellow but I know that I had to increase that in such a way and there's like this note this frequency this vibration so to speak to where I took the and just literally I could feel my soul body everything just go up up up up up to where I am now floating above the earth I can see the earth down below me many miles away still very large but yet I'm very far from it, very far from it. And I could see the earth again to use the matrix. If you remember when Neo could see everything that was inanimate was green, but everything that was animate had like this gold hue life force about it. Like you could see through a building and see all the people walking, they were gold. At this point I'm looking at earth and I could see all vegetation.

24:40 all animals and all humans, but they're just little gold specks walking around on Earth. Quite a crazy sight to see. In this moment, I'm noticing that I'm hearing a lot of whispers and different sounds of people talking and thinking and I'm hearing these little whispers and they're coming from different pieces of the Earth. I put almost like my spiritual ear out to hear like, what is that? I remember the first voice that I heard was a young oriental girl, maybe nine, 10, 11 years old. You could feel she's terrified. You could feel she's sad. You could feel she's worried and she's looking for something. You could hear her say, mommy, mommy, where are you? I was swimming in the pond with my friends and then my foot got stuck in the mud. It's so cold and it's so dark down here. I realized in that moment, This poor girl literally just passed away on Earth.

25:39 She was obviously swimming. She was in a pond, I believe, and her foot got stuck in some mud. And she just went from like I was a few moments ago, human form, into her spirit form. But yet I can see her. I didn't even call back out to see if she could hear me. I was a little freaked out by that, admittedly. But I could, I remember smelling swamp water. I remember feeling the cool, cold, clammy -ness as if I was like, uh, empathizing with her and feeling what she felt in that moment. The panic and the sadness and the worry. You know, I'm still hearing more whispers and I kind of moved on to the next one. And like one that came out of the crowd was a very Scottish accent. The older man, I would say easily in the late seventies, mid eighties as far as age.

26:26 I vaguely remember, I can't remember if it was, I want to say Martha or Laura because he had a very heavy accent, but it just came off kind of like almost like Sean Connery from back in the day. But I heard Margaret, Margaret. He's like, I remember we were driving, we were in the truck and we went around the corner and it was storming and the truck came in and he remembers he was just in a crash and he's looking for his wife and I could feel Their whole relationship like they'd been together for easily 40 years and he just loved her so much She was his everything and he already missed her and he was worried about her and how she gonna deal without him and This anguish yet yet there was love yet There was surprise because he just realized that he just passed away or he's also in the in -between but I even remember Seeing the image that's going through his head as he's taking a left There was water on the ground. It's raining. There are lights around a corner. There's a fairly sharp winding road. And I just remember him taking the left and then head on seeing the truck lights.

27:34 And then I kind of snapped out of it like, whoa, I just saw his image, you know, also just like the girl that was in the swamp. And then the third one was it caught my voice because he actually had a lower, no accent. Like I feel like I don't have an accent. Someone from Australia would say that I had an accent, but his voice was similar to mine in a lot of ways. And I could sense that he was a young adult, somewhere around 17, 18, 19, perhaps Midwest. I couldn't tell you where he was, but he was just kind of very sullen, very depressed, very solemn. And he's just like, man. I just couldn't take the depression anymore and people picking on me and it's like I swallowed all those pills hoping to end the pain and boy my mom's gonna be so mad at me but at least you know at least I'm not suffering anymore but I could tell that this young man just passed away from swallowing a bottle of some kind of pills I could even feel like you ever take in a couple of like supplements and you feel that feeling like it didn't go all the way down. It's kind of stuck right around here somewhere. I could feel that in him. Like he had just gulped down some pills and they just kicked in and he's not with us anymore. And that admittedly freaked me out because I'm realizing all these whispers are happening. There's so many more of them.

28:57 And these are people that have recently passed that are Coming to spirit side about to pick out their new mission, maybe go back about to have their life review. And I was kind of thinking like, all right, I can still sense that I'm asking these questions with God in my subconscious here and all this data is being transferred. But again, yet my focus is right here in this portion of my experience. You know, I'm hearing these whispers and it was literally almost too much to take on. There are thousands and thousands more of these people in the in -between. Like I am empathetic and I can feel the sadness and the depression and the despair of people that are now recently passed. I felt like I kind of needed to change the course of where I was focusing and I just immediately like looked up and to my right and lo and behold, there are these two entities up there. Looking back, they didn't have male or female parts, so to speak. They were light bodies, just like the cocoon artist named Alex Gray, the same kind of figure as what God was showing me originally. But they're up here in this space, I guess. I look and they're the ones that are now trying to console these people that are in the in -between. I remember them having very graceful peaceful, just this very spiritual,

30:27 almost ominous energy. They're trying to talk to you like, you'll be okay, hun, you know, one at a time, you're going to be okay, let's show you what you're going to do in your next life. And, you know, they're just really trying to help these people out in the in -between. And I'm just observing like, wow, this is really amazing to see the watch. Who are these people? Who are these helpers? And I just realized in that moment, like, wait a minute, this area. I've been here before, that's how I knew to come here. I know those two entities up there and I kind of looked at one that seemed to be more male and I'm looking at him and he kind of looked over and gave me one of those like, what are you doing over here right now? You're not supposed to really be here. I felt like maybe I was...

31:13 Exploring an abandoned mall. I'm not supposed to be here right now. And one of the security guards just busted me wandering around this abandoned mall. I'm like, I'm so sorry. I'm not even sure how I got up here. I'm just trying to get back in my body. And as I'm talking, he nudged over the other entity, which did seem, looking back, very female. He nudged the other entity who's busy helping these in -between people. She kinda looks over, looks at me again and was so surprised to see me like, hey, you're not, wait a minute. You knew you were gonna do this. You knew you were gonna be here. You gave me something to give you when this happened. Like almost as if my, before I was Brian, my soul chose this whole life and that I made plans with them that, hey, just in case I come back, like I'm planning on having a stroke. When I'm 43 and I'm going to come up here, here's this thing to give to me because I won't remember as Brian, but I need you to give this to me." And she's like, hey, I have something to give you. Let me go get it.

32:21 So she kind of, I want to say dissipated, just moved off and just literally dissipated off to another area of space. I'm not sure really how to explain that it felt like she's going off to like a janitor's broom closet here and this isn't very familiar area i realized that i was once one of these entities they knew me they knew me the mail one even said a name. It wasn't brian it was the name of my soul. it felt so familiar like hey wow as soon as he said it i was like oh yeah that's the real me that's the extended energy my soul that's been here forever that's going to remain here like this one knows me like we're brothers like former co -workers that was the whole feeling that i was getting almost as if i was on maternity leave and just step back into my office and haven't been here in a while and everybody's like hey how you doing that was the feeling i got do you remember that name You know, I've stated it before, this memory thing, I wish. I do recall that it wasn't a word, like a name that we would say on earth. It's not like Michael, Dave, Steve, Bob. It was something way more than that. Almost like a different language.

33:32 100 % a different language. Do you know who those two entities were? And that's a thing too. I knew they were, I want to call them former coworkers. Almost like if you walk back into an old job you had when you were 17 and that same old guys at the cash register But dang it. I don't remember your name. I remember your face I remember how you feel and I remember your emotions and mannerisms, but uh, what's your name again Steve? You know, it was kind of like that. Like there's just this weird memory loss Is she a block there that happened? So was there more before you came back into your body? This is the very end she walked off And the male version was like, hey, how's it going down there? How are things going? And I'm just like, man, I was panicking. I'm like, they're poisoning the water. They're poisoning the air.

34:20 They're poisoning the food. We have to pay to be on there. There's evil people. They're taking advantage of children. There's still slavery down there, just giving a full mission report. I'm like, you need to send more people down here. We need help to fix and turn around this planet and raise the vibration of the planet. And he's like, we've been sending people there. There's plans. of spiritual warriors down there that you need to help wake up and I'm like well wait is that part of my mission and he's trying to tell me like yeah you're here to help wake up other spiritual warriors to raise the vibration of hurting. Just a quick minute to offer up a huge thank you to our ongoing sponsor Squarespace. If you need a website, Squarespace is the place to do it yourself and do it right. If you need a domain name, yep. Squarespace is the place for that too. Have you been kicking around a business idea and now need a website to make it a reality? Have you ever thought about creating a site for oh your family or your neighborhood or your community organization but didn't know where to get started? Well Squarespace makes it easy and inexpensive for you to build your own home on the internet. Whether you're writing a book, starting a side hustle, or own a small business that needs a website, take it from me with Squarespace. You can do it yourself and it'll turn out great. No coding experience necessary.

35:44 In fact they have beautiful templates so you don't need to be a graphic designer either. SEO tools, shopping cart, email, it is all in there and right now they're offering round trip death listeners a free trial. Plus with promo code roundtrip you'll save 10 % off your first purchase of a website or domain. I'll put a link in the code down in the show notes to make it easy for you. So take a minute right now go to squarespace .com forward slash roundtrip and get started on your own website for free at squarespace .com slash roundtrip with promo code roundtrip. Don't fully understand how to do that don't feel like I got a complete synapsis of what I needed, but that was the gist of it. You know, I was kind of contemplating like, what do you mean? I'm here to raise the wood. And how am I going to what? And the female entity came back with this again, bigger than a bowling ball, smaller than a beach ball. It looked like inside it was kind of like a lava lamp. There's just reds and oranges and even a couple of purples and blacks and glitterly specks in this giant ball. And she's like, here, this is what you gave me to give to you because you knew this was going to happen. And this is what you gave me to give to you when this happened.

37:06 And she kind of throws it at me. And in that moment, maybe not even a second and a half, I'm panicking because as a spirit body, I don't have arms. How am I going to catch this thing? I kind of remember a feeling of going like this, although I don't actually have arms. And it just hits me in the chest. And in that moment, my eyes actually open in the real world. And the orderly that picked me up off the floor, the original one, is rubbing on my sternum. And I kind of wake up. I look around for a second, like, is this real? Like, I was just in space with two crazy entities in space a minute ago. And I'm looking up at him, and he's like, hey, do you know your name? And I said my name, Brian Dusak.

37:54 He's like, good, good, you can speak. He's like, do you know where you are? The G -rated version is, I better be in a flippin' hospital because I feel like crap. And he actually laughed a little bit because I had a sense of humor. He's like, sir, you just had an ischemic, I think it was first, and then we gave you the juice, and then a hemorrhagic stroke. He's like, the clot. that was in your brain just broke into three smaller ones. I'm not even sure how they knew that. Like, did they already put me through an MRI machine? How long was I out? I don't have answers to any of those questions. But he's like, the clots, one of them is traveling back to your brain. One's going to your heart and the other's going to your lungs. This is the knockout juice. They had an IV in me already. And he's like, this is the knockout juice. You're going to be out from eight to 12 hours. We're gonna crack open your ribs and we're gonna get that clap before it gets to your heart sir and immediately that same like telepathic voice that was coming from God originally when I was asking all the questions and getting answers was I Felt like he took over because I don't remember willing my hand to move but my hand went right on top of his hand as he's got the his thumb on that plunger to put in my IV lines and The words that came out of my mouth were no We're not having any surgery today. Take me to a private room. I know what I need to do." And I feel like I used the force on him because he took his thumb off the plunger,

39:24 pulled it out of my line and he was shaking a little bit and you could see the hairs on his arm stood up and his pupils dilated as if something really affected him. He's like, I believe you. What do you need? And I said, take me to a private room. I said, I need water. I need aspirin. and all the citrus you can bring me. But mind you, it wasn't really me saying this. I'm observing my mouth saying it, but something more was in me at the time. Whether it was God speaking for me, my guardian angels, whatever that is, you could feel it in the room. There was a lot of like staticky energy in the room at this moment. And he's like, okay, okay, I believe you. He wheeled me to a private room. He told the nurse what was going on. He went off to go get those three items. I remember a few minutes later, Hillary Clinton's little sister came in and made me sign the release paperwork for responsibility because I'm denying surgery. They made me sign three or four of those. He comes back in, he's wheeling a cart, and there's two pitchers of water, two packets of aspirin, and a bowl of grapefruit, limes, lemon, and oranges. And he just kind of pushed it up next to me. He's like, here you go. I didn't even blink. I ripped open the aspirin. I started crushing it with the pitcher.

40:40 I pulled it off the table and I had it like this. And I remember them looking at me like they thought I was going to sniff it. I put it in the water and just started chugging that. And then I started peeling the limes, the lemons, the grapefruits, but I wasn't eating the fruit body. I wanted nothing more. You could call it a crave, but it was more than a crave. I needed the peels. The peels, which is not very tasty. This is one of the hardest things I can recall ever having in my body, plus the aspirin. It's like brushing your teeth after drinking, or drinking orange juice after brushing your teeth. It's very... They thought you were nuts. Let's face it. Nobody does this. This is crazy. Denying heart surgery and just saying, no, I'll take the citrus peels and aspirin water instead. I made it through like a lime. I made it through a lot of the grapefruit and I did eat a little bit of the fruit and I'm just chugging water and mushing this horrible peels in my mouth. And I remember, you know, I've got heart monitors on me and I can't like mimic what the sound was, but my heartbeat went very irregular for a minute there. It was already rough, but it was just doing something. And I remember hearing the voice one more time. and it was cough hard, cough now, and don't stop coughing. And mind you, I still got peels in my mouth, so I tried to wash them down and just coughing and coughing and pushing and coughing and coughing. Took another sip of the water and just trying to get more peels apart as I'm coughing

42:12 my heart out. And son of a gun, maybe, I don't know, I want to say somewhere around the seventh to tenth, twelfth cough, I felt this real crazy feeling in my heart. It was a pop. And then a squish I compared to like maybe if a tiny jellyfish was in my arteries because I felt the pop of its head and then the tail behind it. And I remember my heartbeats going crazy. I'm still coughing. I'm still trying to chew the little pieces of my mouth. And then there was another squish as if it had turned around or something. And then a pop as is coming out. I guess that's your right ventricle. I'm not sure. I'm not a scientist or a doctor, but. I just passed that blood clot through my heart while I'm chewing and drinking the aspirin water. And I think the whole point was to maybe break down that clot so that it can pass through my heart without killing me or getting stuck. I guess that's what happens when you have a heart attack. I remember the doctors looking at me. Because the surgeon that was supposed to do my heart surgery came in the room during this time. I forgot to mention that.

43:17 He came in the room and he's trying to tell me like, you need it. We should have cut you open moments ago. You need to have the surgery. You're going to have a heart attack. And I'm just, nope, nope, you know, and drinking the aspirin water and chewing on these citrus peels. You know, the orderlies kind of looking at me dumbfounded like, well, I've never seen anything like that before. He, you know, he was pretty freaked out. Two other nurses are just like, Did that just happen? I remember they were getting the defibrillator paddles ready while I was coughing. They were ready to jumpstart me again in case I had passed out. A few minutes had gone by and I remember feeling that same similar pop wish, but yet I could tell the clot was getting smaller. That first time it kind of hurt a little bit. But now the second time I felt it more like a twinge and then after it came around the third time It was much less of a twinge. So whatever I was doing was breaking up this cloud. Thank God, you know pretty much at that point They put me on observation for I think was three more days Then I signed some paperwork and they released me So no long -term effects from the stroke No paralyzed or anything there were two minor things that happened my left eye had a slight blind spot I'd say about the size of a quarter that dissipated after time and Then my left arm my thumb was kind of I'd say numb or stiff I don't know if that was like a nerve damage or something But it it would start from my thumb went up around my wrist to my elbow back behind and then into

44:48 my back muscles it was numb like literally you could tap it you could feel there's a sensation but it's it's kind of a numbing strange feeling you know i stretched that out started taking electrolytes and things of that nature to to help it eventually went away the blind spot took about six seven months to finally resolve I feel like we need to put out some kind of a medical disclaimer here. This isn't health advice. If you're having a stroke, we're not giving medical advice on what to do with it. This was Brian's inspiration period and it worked for you. I just feel like I need to jump in and say, I lost track of how many things in your experience are different than most NDE's. There's so many. as you probably know. First I want to just go through some of them and maybe you can elaborate if you feel like on some of them. Leaving your body, I have some notes here, a ripping noise and a pop feeling.

45:51 No one's ever told me that before. Can you explain that any more than that? I actually have a sound that I was listening to some music and there is a sound that I found that That I actually have Saved that I'll share with you. Maybe you can reshare it in the podcast I believe it's called a transmission from Mars. The album is called planetary medicine and it's by a DJ group called Mercury M -U -R -K -U -R -Y but Transmission from Mars I believe is what it's called but the first like 30 seconds of that if it was condensed into like two That's literally exactly what I heard, but I'll find it for you All right, yeah send me that. Another thing that's very unusual is that after leaving your body you felt panic for a long time. Most people all of a sudden feel peace because their pain is gone and other things from this world and this physical body are gone and so they usually feel peace and it's so, I'm not going to say weird, it's unusual.

47:01 That you felt panic yet. It sounds like it wasn't much later that you described to me love peace calmness and security Well time is kind of different there for sure, you know as I'm watching things happen maybe a Minute occurred as I'm watching them, you know, pick me up put me on the gurney and cart me off But yeah For that minute, it seemed like an eternity as a spirit. And yes, uh, it was extensive, like yes, complete panic, complete disarray. There was regret that I didn't do more. There was a lot of crazy feelings for that first minute, but luckily the big guy showed up and calmed me down. All right, we'll get to the big guy here in a minute. First, I want to ask your opinion on something. You felt the young Asian girl, the Scottish man and the young man who had taken the pills. What do you think it was the purpose in you having this empathic kind of experience with them? If you would have asked me early on, I wouldn't have an answer. But I really thought about that after talking to a couple other people about my experience. A lot have said that there's a very good chance that I was prior to this. one of those types of entities that was helping people in the in -between. Because A, I knew exactly how to get there. B, there

48:33 was the familiarity of being there when I got there. C, the two entities completely recognized me and I did recognize them. But I think that was just, it was a spark of a memory as my larger soul was just remembering. that it's there, that this is a place that I've been before. That was my part of my job. I think in the spirit realm is being one of the consolers that was helping walk people through after just passing away. So I was kind of like tapping into that, that memory or that ability or that job, so to speak. So you felt like that was your role with those two entities, the male and female were people that you had for lack of a better term. worked with or served with or whatever was helping people pass over to the other side. Yes. Okay. That's super interesting. I feel like they were shorthanded, meaning that there might've been a larger group of entities like this, and that some of us kind of chose to come down here on earth in the 3D and kind of left them with more work to do, if that makes sense. So you feel like that'll be your responsibility again when you die someday I wish I knew the answer to that I mean I would definitely go back there and and help and keep doing that but I I don't know when the time comes am I gonna pick to come back and You know, maybe

50:05 still raise the vibration of the planet or turn something else around or volunteer hold another dimension or planet. I wish I knew that's the whole exciting part of it. I'm no longer scared to die. I'm definitely looking forward to my next mission. And that's part of what I was getting at, but let's talk about that mission for a second. How in the world can one person raise this vibrational level, as you put it, of the planet? Have you figured any of that out yet? It sounds way, way, way overwhelming. I've been hypnotized. I've gone to different Spiritual people, shamans, ask that question. I've talked to psychics. They've all said that's something I got to find within myself. The more I think about it, some are saying that just by being me and doing the things that I have done in this lifetime are enough, but I have this overwhelming, undying, nagging feeling that I need to be doing more. How? I feel like since that's happened, I wasn't always the nicest guy. I wasn't a bad guy, but I wasn't always so jovial or so peaceful or so knowledgeable on things. And I feel like now that this has happened to me that I'm trying to, I guess, reflect.

51:20 the entities that I saw there. I want to be more jovial, be more kind, be more happy, be more helpful, you know, helping literally raise, you know, when I drive for a living, I pick up people for public transportation. I used to do Lyft and Uber, now it's called ViaTrans, which is picking up the public. When they get in and somebody gets in and they're just, they go, hey, how are you doing today? You don't sound so good. You know, what's going on? How can I help? You know, other people with health advice and things that I've gone through and the intermittent fasting, the parasite cleanses and trying to help each individual as I go. And I feel like at least I can help one or two or five or 10 people in a day. That's a little bit, but I know I need to be doing a lot more to be honest, not to take anything away from from your whole show. I want to do a podcast. I'm just in a weird financial bind to where I have to work seven days a week right now and haven't found the time. But I feel like if I have, you know, coming as an NDE experiencer, I would like to have other NDE experiencers on, but from another aspect to where like we can compare notes of things, the way we felt things, how we interacted, how the telepathy happened, how that ripping or popping noise happened, you know, just how it felt to not be using your normal physical senses and using your spiritual senses.

52:43 I feel like Like how I had a mission, I feel like a lot of people have different missions. And if we were able to kind of conglomerate and get together, you'll see how different parts of the puzzle actually start to fit together. And there's a lot of healers out there. There's a lot of people that know they're healers that are a little scared. Maybe they're on the religious end and, you know, thinking about psychic things or healing or even meditating is evil, right? but to show people like, hey, I used to be like that too. And, you know, look at us now, you know, there's healers out here. Let's find our missions and how it all fits together and help each other out. I hope that made sense. Oh, absolutely.

53:27 And being on this podcast today, you're reaching thousands of people. So you're off to a good start on that. Sometimes those things that feel like a mission, it's not like we can define them ahead of time. And we can say, oh, that's exactly what I need to do. But we follow along with little promptings, little feelings that we're getting. And after a while, we can look back and say, ah, look what I've done. Now I can do even more of that. And you may experience something like that. You know, there's times where we can look back and say, wow, four years of doing this podcast and reaching You know hundreds of thousands and a couple of million people so far Hopefully that's done some good in the world and you're a piece of that So thank you for that. It's all about spreading hope and that's what this show is about and that's what your message I think is about Last thing before I let you go. I want to talk a little bit more about your discussion with God I find it so peculiar That and did you call God? an it or a he or a she or a how did you refer pronoun wise? I feel like God is light and consciousness so therefore I have been trying not to put it as just a male figure like we've been taught through religion. It's so much more than that. So much more than that. I have been

54:58 saying it because saying he although it showed me a malish entity, it's so much more. We relate that to a human form. It was pure consciousness. It was just showing me a human form, I think, so that I could relate to it, if that makes sense. Yeah, I almost laughed. I thought it was funny when you asked, are you God? And God said, most of the time. It definitely has a sense of humor. It just reminds me a little bit of, we've been talking about some old movies today too. There's an old movie called Oh God. George Burns? So yes, Oh God starring George Burns and John Denver, the singer. That guy, okay. I know you're a little young for John Denver, but you've made reference to some other older things here today. Yeah, my mom definitely liked John Denver. Yeah. He was in the movie, but that The thing is that this reminded me of is what you said is George Burns playing God was just so very matter -of -fact like oh, yeah, okay You know, yes this or no that it was very surprising I expected a more of like an ethereal royalty kind of vibe as you would picture going through like the Bible or something You know old man in the clouds with the wings and you know some sort of chariot perhaps playing a harp I guess I don't know with his walking stick, but it was nothing like that for

56:29 me But then again, after doing some research, other people based off of their belief system, they see what it is they believe in. And I think that God, that's what you want to call it, supreme being, whatever it is, shows us that just so that we don't panic. If a Christian all of a sudden saw Krishna, he'd probably be pretty dang surprised. You know what I mean? If a Jewish person saw a Buddhist monk, they'd be pretty surprised. So I think they purposely kind of try to relate into your belief system, which is now why I understand it is omnipresent. It is all knowing. It is all seeing. It's all of the above. If God is omnipresent, he's created all the things. And I'm not going to spend time telling you much about my beliefs. That's not what this show is about, but Here's the commonality that I see with all of these. When people describe some things that you did, love, peace, calm, security, serenity, bliss, whatever kinds of adjectives we want to use, to me, those are descriptions of God, because that's where all of those feelings are coming from. 100%. I agree with that. All right. Thank you for that. And I appreciate you spending time with me today. This has been good fun. I've got a new friend with you, Brian, and let's keep in touch. We'll circle back in a while.

57:57 And if you want help launching a podcast, I'm happy to be there for you. If I could state real quick that I made a Facebook group. It's called Doozies Quest, D -O -O -Z -I -E -S Quest, where I've posted this. in a long form where I wrote it out, people can interact with me. So if anybody knows how to remember some of the things or wants to hypnotize me and or give me a reading, like I'd love for somebody to reach out and other spiritual warriors that realize that they've got something and they're trying to wake up and maybe we could all work together on this. Feel free to join the group and communicate with me. All right. You send me that link. I'll stick it down on the show notes so everybody can find it. Yeah. And there are groups that you may want to connect with, like Ions, where a lot of experiencers find a lot of peace and understanding by mingling with other people that have been through similar experiences. I missed last year's meeting, but I'm going to do my best to get to this year's meeting. Seattle this year. That's a haul from Texas, but I'll figure it out. All right, Brian, take care of my friend. Thanks again for listening and sharing this podcast. Don't forget to hit the follow or subscribe button and sign up for our newsletter at roundtripdeath .com. If you want to share your near -death experience or if you have questions or comments about the show, send an email to eric at roundtripdeath .com.

59:20 Until then, I wish you everything good that you're looking for in this life and the next.