Bryan's Conversation With God

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From the time that they pronounced me that was

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a good 45 minutes They cut my clothes and then

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they paddled my heart my heart stopped and I

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could see people screaming and crying But I didn't

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realize that was actually my physical body because

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I was somewhere else The only thing that I could

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feel if you can imagine Absolute love and peace

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there wasn't anything else to be felt. I was

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greeted by people I'd known in the past I'm back

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home again. Incredibly safe and felt at home.

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Welcome, welcome to Round Trip Death, everybody.

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We are super happy to have Brian Duzak with us

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today. Brian, good morning. Hello, sir. Hello,

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everybody. It's good to see you again. Thank

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you for reaching out to the show. I can't wait

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to hear all the details of your story after hearing

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the idea. of what it is in our pre -interview

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the other day. But before we jump right into

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it, and we're going to be there really quick.

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Brian, would you just take one minute and tell

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us a little bit about you so we can get to know

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you? Well, I'm 51 now. I live in Texas. I actually

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grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. Fairly average

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life, nothing too extreme. My dad actually pretty

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much raised me from about two years old up until

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I was seven, eight, and he got remarried. I like

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to kind of brag about my stepmom a lot. I feel

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like I chose her in a way. I introduced her to

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my dad and six months later they were engaged

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and a year later they got married. She was a

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very spiritual woman, the yoga type, the meditator

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type, open to A Course in Miracles, if you remember

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that old thing. Introduced me to the law of attraction

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when I was in my 20s, I believe, or maybe 30s.

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But she was very well -rounded. She was open

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to a lot of things, introduced me to a lot of

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things. On my real mom's side, she's part Native

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American. So I was very curious about those types

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of things, you know, medicine and healing and

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such. And never participated in yoga, a little

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bit tried to do meditation. But one thing that

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struck out to me in seventh and eighth grade,

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I was checking out books about astral projection

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and actually achieved astral projection in eighth

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grade. I had a little bit of experience with

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it, but kind of let it go in my 20s. Got stuck

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in corporate America, working a full -time job.

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I was working for a veteran -owned t -shirt company

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where I was at my desk 14 hours a day and kind

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of lost my way physically. I was a wrestler when

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I was younger, but I had gained a lot of weight.

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I got up to 250 -ish when I was wrestling at

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160 -ish. It was just, you know, pizza, fast

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food, Mountain Dew, Red Bull. Those are my four

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main food groups. And that, by the way, is where

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you're already leading right up to your NDE and

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I appreciate that. And so go ahead and take us

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down that road because people are going to hear

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about you having a stroke at a young age. You

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were what, 43 at that time? Yes, sir. Okay, go

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ahead and get there. I had actually for a few

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weeks had a pain in my left calf and had no idea

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that it was a blood clot building up. I thought

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I had shin splints. I was limping around the

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office and people are just like, dude, what's

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wrong with you? I'm like, I don't know. I actually

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stopped by a clinic. At one point he gave me

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some sort of a muscle relaxer medication I'd

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taken for a couple of weeks. Wasn't helping at

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all. Come to find out. I was building up blood

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clots in my system from just eating a huge, fatty,

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sugary diet. I just wasn't really taking care

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of myself. I thought of myself as healthy. I

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tried to eat right for the most part, but looking

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back, yeah, it was pretty disgusting. Just, you

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know, fast food pizza, Mountain Dew Red Bull.

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Again, a lot of coffee as well, sugary coffee.

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I made it home and I believe that was July 8th,

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if I'm not mistaken. Ordered another pizza. And

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I was about halfway through it, chugging a two

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liter of soda. Just something was terribly wrong.

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I believe that your pancreas that I had the feeling

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under my right ribs was kind of a burning sensation.

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And it was just getting stronger. I couldn't

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feel like my heartbeat in that area. You know,

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my wife's like, ah, you know, take some Pepto.

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You'll be all right. You know, try going to the

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washroom that wasn't fixing anything. And then

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the tunnel vision set in and I couldn't catch

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my breath. It was just a very strange feeling

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I'd never felt before. The tunnel vision started

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kind of like wide scope, but was slowly narrowing

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in to where I could only see kind of like a stars

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or static around this certain area. And I really

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had the focus to see. So I was panicking. Her

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and I were pretty much fighting at the time,

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but I'm like, hey, can you just take me to the

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hospital? Oh, you don't need the hospital. You'll

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be fine, you know? But eventually I... guess

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I coaxed her into taking me and we made it there.

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She literally dropped me off at the emergency

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room entrance and I stepped out of the car, closed

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the door and she peeled out of there mad at me

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because I was inconveniencing her. Anyways, that

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relationship is over by the way. But I call it

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walking the longest mile because it might have

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been only 20 or 30 steps but it took everything

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in me to Focus my energy in that direction just

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right foot left foot right foot left foot and

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the tunnel vision I say maybe got to about as

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big as a paper towel roll. I could only see Right

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in front of me. I made it through those sliding

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automatic doors made it about seven more steps

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and I looked to my left and there's people filling

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out paperwork and There was just no way I couldn't

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function. I feel like you know if my energy bar

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went from 100 to zero here I was at like three

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percent left there wasn't much left in me you

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know by the grace of god I looked to my right

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and there was a male orderly I guess you would

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call her a nurse uh pushing a gurnee about to

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turn down another hall and we made eye contact

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and I was trying to say like help me I'm not

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sure what came out of my mouth but it definitely

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wasn't that and In that moment, I just remember

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my hand, my arm just slinking and falling to

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the floor from pure weakness, but I also saw

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the back of my head on the way down and I didn't

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feel the impact of touching the floor. But when

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I saw the back of my head, you don't normally

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see the back of your head unless you're using

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a couple of mirrors. So right away I realized

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like, wait, what? What? Wait, hold on a second.

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Where are my arms? I'm on the floor. Where? Wait,

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what? Yeah, so you're so you're out of your body

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already observing everything. There was this

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strange like ripping noise compared to two pieces

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of Velcro being pulled apart slowly just to and

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then there was kind of a pop feeling. That was

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it. Yeah, all in that moment while I'm watching

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the back of my head. It's just I'm literally

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seeing I don't want to say inside my head, but

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yeah, it was just kind of like black vision at

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first. And then boom, there's the back of my

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head and it fell to the floor and yeah, heard

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the ripping noise. And like I said earlier, I

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had been astral before. So my first reaction

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was like, wait a minute, I'm astral right now.

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And I looked down and normally there's like type

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of a cord coming from like your sternum area

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of your light body to the sternum of your actual

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body. And it wasn't there. And in that few seconds,

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I just really realized like, oh my gosh, I'm

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dead. Like panic attack, panic attack, like danger

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Will Robinson. There's a problem going on right

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now. It's kind of strange and it's really hard

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to explain when you're separate from your body,

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you're not limited to the, you know, the five

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senses or six senses. Some people would say,

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but I guess I immediately it's from a completely

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different perspective. Like I understood in that

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moment, like, oh, this is like my over soul.

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This is the higher me. This is the bigger me.

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This is the one that's been here for eons and

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will be here for many eons. Even though the Brian

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body is only going to be here for a give or take,

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who knows, 60, 70 years hopefully. But it was

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just a very strange feeling. I immediately like

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had this knowing. And the first thing that popped

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through my head was I didn't finish my mission

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and I need to get back in my body. Although I

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still can't recall my mission fully, I immediately

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knew like, oh gosh, oh gosh, I didn't finish

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my mission. I didn't do what I was supposed to

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do here. I even thought like God's going to be

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upset with me as if I had made a promise to do

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something while I'm here as Brian. Very awkward

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feeling to know that you have a mission, but

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not to know exactly what your mission is. I don't

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know what that is, why we can't remember these

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things. since talked to other people and they're

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like, yeah, I know I have a mission too, but

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I don't fully understand it either. I don't know

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why they have this. I would love to meet somebody

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that could like try to do hypnotization. So I

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can remember these things, but still haven't

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had success with that yet. Anyways, if you've

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ever had an adrenaline rush or a panic attack,

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I was having one, but I was having one as a body.

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I mean, as a soul, not a body. Like I could literally

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feel the pulsating, the freaking out was happening

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and just like, Oh my God, Oh my God, what do

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I do? I'm watching it in these few seconds. You

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know, they noticed I fell down. Obviously the

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orderly comes towards me and was asking for help

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from another nurse. They ended up picking me

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up, putting me on the gurney. And I'm kind of

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here watching this. I remember a feeling of looking

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at the gurney itself, the actual steel bars with

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the pads on them. that they push you with and

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everything that I looked at much like what I've

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done in astral projection is you could literally

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feel the the molecular density of everything

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that you look at and you have 360 vision so I'm

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turning my head right now but you don't have

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to there are no physical attributes you you think

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to the left you're looking to the left you think

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to the right you're looking to the right and

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I remember when i'm looking at this gurney feeling

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the coolness iron or whatever metal it was i

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could feel its molecular structure i can't really

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explain that other than kind of like um have

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you ever looked at battery a nine volt battery

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of course not i would never do something like

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that as kids i know we tried that no we do we

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do it to test and see if they still have a charge

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it was just kind of like that feeling like you

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can Totally feel it inside you when you're looking

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at something you can feel its structure the second

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nurse that walked up I remember looking at her

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smock and just feeling the Again, the density

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of the threads and like what it was made of in

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every way shape or form It's very hard to try

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to explain that when you're in your normal physical

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body, but outside of it I can only imagine like

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what the ghosts are in between spirits are feeling

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as far as Going through something like you could

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feel what the dry walls made over the stuffing

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inside it. You know, it's a very strange feeling.

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It's kind of hard to explain. But yeah, the molecular

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structure is the only way really I could say

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that. But again, I watched them kind of pick

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me up, put me on the cart, cart me off. I'm seeing

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other people in the room are panicking. I remember

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hearing Although I don't have ears, but I could

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hear like, Oh, I hope that guy is going to be

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okay. And another one's like, Oh geez, that guy

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just totally fell on his face. And like, I could

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hear other people's thoughts in a way during

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that panic attack. Again, I didn't finish my

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mission. I was freaking out. And then suddenly

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this, um, Just like kind of like a glow is happening.

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It's really increasing It's getting very bright

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and I kind of glance over to my right and There

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is an entity looking right at me I compared to

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like if you're at a bar and you see an old friend

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and you tap him on the shoulder and he turns

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around and it's like hey But I look over in this

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entities like And I'm looking at it, I compared

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it to two things, like the glowing aliens from

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the movie Cocoon, if you remember that movie.

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Yeah, that's an old one. Yeah. And then also

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there's a lot of colors and light going on, although

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it's mainly this golden white there. I can see,

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like if you stare at a TV screen or a monitor

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very closely, you see the little RGB lines in

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there. When you look at it, it's mainly golden

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white. but there are little colors within kind

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of like prisms of light inside it. I want to

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say it was male although there was nothing you

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know no chest or anything but I looked right

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at it and I knew immediately that I was looking

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at God it it had an angelic feel but it was more

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than that and this kind of like a light fog was

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coming for emanating from it and coming over

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to me and kind of surrounded me and Immediately,

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I just felt calm. I felt peace the whole panic

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attack subsided. Thank God because that was a

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very scary situation I'm just like looking at

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it and it's kind of like yeah, you have any questions

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for him? Like are you God? You know, I knew inside

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my head or well my spirit but I knew it but I

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just had to ask to verify and he's looking at

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me like yeah most of the time don't you recognize

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me you know me it kind of dawned on me that that

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thought that I had earlier about being a soul

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you know for all time like your soul your consciousness

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is energy which never dissipates at least in

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our universe and it was just like dawning on

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me like I've been here forever different entities

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I'll be here for a long time as different entities

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but this guy right here knows me in between all

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the above since the beginning and up until if

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there ever is an end and it just knows me and

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I just felt that like hey you're like an old

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friend that I don't recognize unfortunately as

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Brian in my body but right now like hey like

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holy cow man like I'm sorry I didn't finish my

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mission what do I do I need to get back in my

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body ASAP and do what I came down to do again

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I'm panicking and and he's just like calm down

00:14:56.210 --> 00:15:00.230
everything will be fine you have some time let's

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go for a walk and chat I can tell you have a

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lot of questions you know you don't really say

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no to God so it's just like yeah okay kind of

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like mosey with me i don't remember like grabbing

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his hand but i remember being right next to him

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i didn't see a tunnel of light i didn't have

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a life review i'm kind of mad about that because

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i don't remember if i have one or not i don't

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think i did but i do remember going into a room

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type thing if you've ever seen the matrix by

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chance where neo says we need guns and then all

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of a sudden they're in that like golden room

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There were no guns with God, but I was definitely

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in this golden type room with him. I don't remember

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seeing boundaries, but you could feel there is

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one, although it's all light. You can't see walls.

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It's hard to explain that too. Immediately. I'm

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just like, Hey, I need to get back in my body.

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I didn't finish my mission. Like I need to go

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back. I didn't really like ask. Can I go back

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to my body? I guess it's the sales guy in me.

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I was just like, what do I have to do when I

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get back in my body? And I wasn't asking. I wasn't

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really thrown a choice out there. It was like,

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maybe I even knew that I would be let back to

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my body. But I remember when I first asked that

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question, like I was concerned obviously about

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my health. I didn't want to jump back in and

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then just die again because my heart wasn't working

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right. Or there's a stroke happening. I needed

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to know what I needed to do to fix my body. And

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literally the second I asked that, I don't really

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love to use the word download, but there was

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a message sent to my core of my being and immediately

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message received. It's definitely telepathic

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because I don't have ears to hear. And I remember

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when it came to me, it wasn't in the words in

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English, but somehow the message that was sent

00:16:51.610 --> 00:16:55.179
was interpreted by my by my soul because that's

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the language I speak. I feel like if I was Greek

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or Italian or Hindu for that matter, it would

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have been interpreted in the language that you

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perceive at the time or that you speak at that

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time. And the first thing that came was water,

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aspirin, and citrus peels, emphasis on peels.

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Not something I would normally think about, but

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okay, noted. Now I'm thinking, okay, so if that's

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going to help me when I get back, like what do

00:17:21.329 --> 00:17:23.890
I need to do to kind of maintain? I realized

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that I needed to lose weight, clear my arteries,

00:17:27.089 --> 00:17:29.069
you know, fix my body because I've done a lot

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of damage over the last 10 years or so gained

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a lot of weight. And just immediately there was

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a cycle of words that at the time I just didn't

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know fully. I'd heard of some of the things that

00:17:41.390 --> 00:17:43.750
popped in, but like I remember intermittent fasting,

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moringa seeds, sea moss. a lot of different things,

00:17:47.359 --> 00:17:50.059
parasite cleanses, things of that nature, stop

00:17:50.059 --> 00:17:53.500
eating dairy, cut down on carbs, literally, or

00:17:53.500 --> 00:17:56.880
bread even. And just all these little like diet

00:17:56.880 --> 00:17:59.740
supplement kind of information was coming into

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me. And it was a pretty long list. I'm like,

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okay, like noted, okay. Now, wow, okay. If I

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ask questions, they're immediately answered.

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And in that moment, I just kind of realized like,

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I don't know if you've ever thought if you sat

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down with Jesus or God, What would you ask them?

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There's a long list of questions, right? I'm

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a guy with a million questions. So you know.

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I could keep him busy for years asking my questions.

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And I'm about to ask you a million questions

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too, but go ahead and finish what happened. While

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my brain's thinking of things to say, I had to

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just ask. I was like, you know, again, are you

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God? And he's like, yeah, like you don't recognize

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me. Yes. Most of the time. Yeah, I'm God. In

00:18:44.579 --> 00:18:47.440
that moment, I feel this presence of just the

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love, the peace, the overwhelming calmness. I

00:18:50.579 --> 00:18:53.160
compare that whole feeling to like, you know,

00:18:53.279 --> 00:18:55.339
laying in your grandmother's bosom as she reads

00:18:55.339 --> 00:18:58.099
you your favorite bedtime story. You know, you're

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petting a puppy, you're eating a warm oatmeal

00:19:01.059 --> 00:19:05.900
cookie, drinking some milk right by like a fireplace.

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It was just all these things of like love, calmness,

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security, peace, something I haven't felt in

00:19:12.819 --> 00:19:16.670
this lifetime. And I do kind of miss it, to be

00:19:16.670 --> 00:19:20.549
honest. As I'm feeling that, I even asked, I'm

00:19:20.549 --> 00:19:23.150
just like, but there's something more here. Like

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I even asked, like, are you Jesus too? Just as

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plain as day as we're having a conversation with

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a nice gentleman, he's like, yeah, sometimes

00:19:30.750 --> 00:19:34.170
nonchalantly. Yeah, sometimes I'm Jesus too.

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You know, me personally, I've been ominous for

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about 20 years, which is kind of open to all

00:19:39.450 --> 00:19:41.769
the beliefs, looked and researched into, you

00:19:41.769 --> 00:19:44.789
know, some of them. And I asked next, I'm like,

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you know, I feel this, this jovialness about

00:19:48.650 --> 00:19:51.589
you, this happiness, this like kind love thing.

00:19:51.650 --> 00:19:55.289
But I even said like, are you Buddha too? And

00:19:55.289 --> 00:19:57.470
immediately his face went to that meek little

00:19:57.470 --> 00:20:00.630
smile that you see in most images of Buddha and

00:20:00.630 --> 00:20:04.750
just gave me a, wait, you're Buddha too? Wow,

00:20:04.750 --> 00:20:08.269
that's awesome. And then something kind of hard

00:20:08.269 --> 00:20:10.660
to explain. I just, this feeling of something

00:20:10.660 --> 00:20:14.339
ancient, this feeling of time and wisdom. And

00:20:14.339 --> 00:20:16.880
for whatever reason, I thought of Krishna, which

00:20:16.880 --> 00:20:19.940
is more of like a Hindu deity god. And I even

00:20:19.940 --> 00:20:23.160
asked him then, I'm like, are you also Krishna?

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And no BS, my friend. He turned blue. He had

00:20:27.700 --> 00:20:30.019
that little crown and gave me some sort of, I

00:20:30.019 --> 00:20:31.880
can't remember the hand drive signal, almost

00:20:31.880 --> 00:20:35.339
like a break dancing or the Egyptian move, but

00:20:35.339 --> 00:20:39.029
gave me one of those. just to confirm like, yes,

00:20:39.029 --> 00:20:43.450
I'm also Krishna. And that kind of took me back,

00:20:43.809 --> 00:20:46.829
like, holy crap, like, you're all the above.

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Like, I get it now. That's why I'm ominous. You're

00:20:49.410 --> 00:20:52.490
not just that one thing that, you know, some

00:20:52.490 --> 00:20:55.250
beliefs would say, this is the only God. You're

00:20:55.250 --> 00:20:58.230
all seeing, all knowing omnipresent. You're all

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the above. And these are just different messengers

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of you to different continents, different languages,

00:21:04.069 --> 00:21:06.410
to different people. It all just clicked in my

00:21:06.410 --> 00:21:09.920
head. that makes perfect sense now. It kind of

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load of questions, so I just started throwing

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them out there, you know, and it's kind of unfortunate

00:22:39.089 --> 00:22:42.950
maybe our human brain capacity cannot handle

00:22:42.950 --> 00:22:45.549
the terabytes and terabytes of data that my soul

00:22:45.549 --> 00:22:48.900
absorbed. But I am not able to recall any of

00:22:48.900 --> 00:22:50.900
the things from this point forward that I learned.

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And there was many questions, like literally

00:22:53.519 --> 00:22:55.779
books and chapters of questions, just as you

00:22:55.779 --> 00:22:59.000
said you would ask. In this moment, something

00:22:59.000 --> 00:23:01.559
started changing as to where I noticed that my

00:23:01.559 --> 00:23:04.359
bandwidth was increasing greatly. It started

00:23:04.359 --> 00:23:06.680
with like one or two questions, three to five,

00:23:06.740 --> 00:23:10.420
seven to 10, 15 to 500, two million questions.

00:23:10.680 --> 00:23:13.920
And my bandwidth was increasing. I would call

00:23:13.920 --> 00:23:17.880
that my... subconscious now what it had like

00:23:17.880 --> 00:23:22.240
kind of flipped over to where I have a secondary

00:23:22.240 --> 00:23:25.980
thought to where I remembered there's something

00:23:25.980 --> 00:23:30.220
more here on the other side on the spirit world

00:23:30.220 --> 00:23:33.420
so to speak to where I remembered I'm like you

00:23:33.420 --> 00:23:35.599
know what there's something more I just remembered

00:23:35.599 --> 00:23:39.799
I need to go up and I remembered like the calm

00:23:39.799 --> 00:23:42.740
that I was feeling was more of like a own very

00:23:42.740 --> 00:23:46.920
peaceful very mellow but I know that I had to

00:23:46.920 --> 00:23:49.059
increase that in such a way and there's like

00:23:49.059 --> 00:23:52.779
this note this frequency this vibration so to

00:23:52.779 --> 00:23:59.200
speak to where I took the and just literally

00:23:59.200 --> 00:24:02.579
I could feel my soul body everything just go

00:24:02.579 --> 00:24:07.200
up up up up up to where I am now floating above

00:24:07.200 --> 00:24:11.759
the earth I can see the earth down below me many

00:24:11.759 --> 00:24:15.890
miles away still very large but yet I'm very

00:24:15.890 --> 00:24:19.829
far from it, very far from it. And I could see

00:24:19.829 --> 00:24:22.930
the earth again to use the matrix. If you remember

00:24:22.930 --> 00:24:26.650
when Neo could see everything that was inanimate

00:24:26.650 --> 00:24:29.309
was green, but everything that was animate had

00:24:29.309 --> 00:24:32.390
like this gold hue life force about it. Like

00:24:32.390 --> 00:24:33.970
you could see through a building and see all

00:24:33.970 --> 00:24:36.650
the people walking, they were gold. At this point

00:24:36.650 --> 00:24:39.690
I'm looking at earth and I could see all vegetation.

00:24:40.039 --> 00:24:43.339
all animals and all humans, but they're just

00:24:43.339 --> 00:24:46.819
little gold specks walking around on Earth. Quite

00:24:46.819 --> 00:24:50.500
a crazy sight to see. In this moment, I'm noticing

00:24:50.500 --> 00:24:53.579
that I'm hearing a lot of whispers and different

00:24:53.579 --> 00:24:56.680
sounds of people talking and thinking and I'm

00:24:56.680 --> 00:24:59.000
hearing these little whispers and they're coming

00:24:59.000 --> 00:25:03.079
from different pieces of the Earth. I put almost

00:25:03.079 --> 00:25:05.319
like my spiritual ear out to hear like, what

00:25:05.319 --> 00:25:08.500
is that? I remember the first voice that I heard

00:25:08.500 --> 00:25:11.539
was a young oriental girl, maybe nine, 10, 11

00:25:11.539 --> 00:25:15.880
years old. You could feel she's terrified. You

00:25:15.880 --> 00:25:18.460
could feel she's sad. You could feel she's worried

00:25:18.460 --> 00:25:20.940
and she's looking for something. You could hear

00:25:20.940 --> 00:25:24.140
her say, mommy, mommy, where are you? I was swimming

00:25:24.140 --> 00:25:26.640
in the pond with my friends and then my foot

00:25:26.640 --> 00:25:30.980
got stuck in the mud. It's so cold and it's so

00:25:30.980 --> 00:25:35.109
dark down here. I realized in that moment, This

00:25:35.109 --> 00:25:38.430
poor girl literally just passed away on Earth.

00:25:39.349 --> 00:25:42.250
She was obviously swimming. She was in a pond,

00:25:42.269 --> 00:25:45.490
I believe, and her foot got stuck in some mud.

00:25:46.190 --> 00:25:49.210
And she just went from like I was a few moments

00:25:49.210 --> 00:25:52.069
ago, human form, into her spirit form. But yet

00:25:52.069 --> 00:25:54.630
I can see her. I didn't even call back out to

00:25:54.630 --> 00:25:56.710
see if she could hear me. I was a little freaked

00:25:56.710 --> 00:25:59.460
out by that, admittedly. But I could, I remember

00:25:59.460 --> 00:26:02.039
smelling swamp water. I remember feeling the

00:26:02.039 --> 00:26:04.720
cool, cold, clammy -ness as if I was like, uh,

00:26:04.740 --> 00:26:06.859
empathizing with her and feeling what she felt

00:26:06.859 --> 00:26:09.660
in that moment. The panic and the sadness and

00:26:09.660 --> 00:26:13.220
the worry. You know, I'm still hearing more whispers

00:26:13.220 --> 00:26:16.539
and I kind of moved on to the next one. And like

00:26:16.539 --> 00:26:18.880
one that came out of the crowd was a very Scottish

00:26:18.880 --> 00:26:22.000
accent. The older man, I would say easily in

00:26:22.000 --> 00:26:25.279
the late seventies, mid eighties as far as age.

00:26:26.519 --> 00:26:28.640
I vaguely remember, I can't remember if it was,

00:26:28.740 --> 00:26:31.359
I want to say Martha or Laura because he had

00:26:31.359 --> 00:26:34.519
a very heavy accent, but it just came off kind

00:26:34.519 --> 00:26:37.180
of like almost like Sean Connery from back in

00:26:37.180 --> 00:26:40.480
the day. But I heard Margaret, Margaret. He's

00:26:40.480 --> 00:26:42.660
like, I remember we were driving, we were in

00:26:42.660 --> 00:26:44.720
the truck and we went around the corner and it

00:26:44.720 --> 00:26:48.440
was storming and the truck came in and he remembers

00:26:48.440 --> 00:26:51.440
he was just in a crash and he's looking for his

00:26:51.440 --> 00:26:54.839
wife and I could feel Their whole relationship

00:26:54.839 --> 00:26:57.759
like they'd been together for easily 40 years

00:26:57.759 --> 00:27:00.700
and he just loved her so much She was his everything

00:27:00.700 --> 00:27:02.900
and he already missed her and he was worried

00:27:02.900 --> 00:27:06.240
about her and how she gonna deal without him

00:27:06.240 --> 00:27:09.839
and This anguish yet yet there was love yet There

00:27:09.839 --> 00:27:11.859
was surprise because he just realized that he

00:27:11.859 --> 00:27:14.900
just passed away or he's also in the in -between

00:27:14.900 --> 00:27:19.640
but I even remember Seeing the image that's going

00:27:19.640 --> 00:27:22.740
through his head as he's taking a left There

00:27:22.740 --> 00:27:25.079
was water on the ground. It's raining. There

00:27:25.079 --> 00:27:27.779
are lights around a corner. There's a fairly

00:27:27.779 --> 00:27:31.200
sharp winding road. And I just remember him taking

00:27:31.200 --> 00:27:33.819
the left and then head on seeing the truck lights.

00:27:34.579 --> 00:27:37.240
And then I kind of snapped out of it like, whoa,

00:27:37.380 --> 00:27:39.980
I just saw his image, you know, also just like

00:27:39.980 --> 00:27:43.140
the girl that was in the swamp. And then the

00:27:43.140 --> 00:27:45.720
third one was it caught my voice because he actually

00:27:45.720 --> 00:27:48.660
had a lower, no accent. Like I feel like I don't

00:27:48.660 --> 00:27:50.660
have an accent. Someone from Australia would

00:27:50.660 --> 00:27:53.200
say that I had an accent, but his voice was similar

00:27:53.200 --> 00:27:56.000
to mine in a lot of ways. And I could sense that

00:27:56.000 --> 00:27:59.059
he was a young adult, somewhere around 17, 18,

00:27:59.099 --> 00:28:02.440
19, perhaps Midwest. I couldn't tell you where

00:28:02.440 --> 00:28:05.559
he was, but he was just kind of very sullen,

00:28:05.720 --> 00:28:08.980
very depressed, very solemn. And he's just like,

00:28:09.099 --> 00:28:12.500
man. I just couldn't take the depression anymore

00:28:12.500 --> 00:28:16.079
and people picking on me and it's like I swallowed

00:28:16.079 --> 00:28:19.460
all those pills hoping to end the pain and boy

00:28:19.460 --> 00:28:23.559
my mom's gonna be so mad at me but at least you

00:28:23.559 --> 00:28:25.920
know at least I'm not suffering anymore but I

00:28:25.920 --> 00:28:29.099
could tell that this young man just passed away

00:28:29.099 --> 00:28:31.119
from swallowing a bottle of some kind of pills

00:28:31.119 --> 00:28:35.279
I could even feel like you ever take in a couple

00:28:35.279 --> 00:28:37.579
of like supplements and you feel that feeling

00:28:37.579 --> 00:28:39.440
like it didn't go all the way down. It's kind

00:28:39.440 --> 00:28:41.859
of stuck right around here somewhere. I could

00:28:41.859 --> 00:28:44.160
feel that in him. Like he had just gulped down

00:28:44.160 --> 00:28:46.480
some pills and they just kicked in and he's not

00:28:46.480 --> 00:28:50.019
with us anymore. And that admittedly freaked

00:28:50.019 --> 00:28:53.680
me out because I'm realizing all these whispers

00:28:53.680 --> 00:28:56.640
are happening. There's so many more of them.

00:28:57.019 --> 00:28:59.380
And these are people that have recently passed

00:28:59.380 --> 00:29:03.420
that are Coming to spirit side about to pick

00:29:03.420 --> 00:29:06.220
out their new mission, maybe go back about to

00:29:06.220 --> 00:29:09.039
have their life review. And I was kind of thinking

00:29:09.039 --> 00:29:12.539
like, all right, I can still sense that I'm asking

00:29:12.539 --> 00:29:16.059
these questions with God in my subconscious here

00:29:16.059 --> 00:29:19.339
and all this data is being transferred. But again,

00:29:19.440 --> 00:29:22.960
yet my focus is right here in this portion of

00:29:22.960 --> 00:29:25.420
my experience. You know, I'm hearing these whispers

00:29:25.420 --> 00:29:28.220
and it was literally almost too much to take

00:29:28.220 --> 00:29:31.309
on. There are thousands and thousands more of

00:29:31.309 --> 00:29:34.029
these people in the in -between. Like I am empathetic

00:29:34.029 --> 00:29:36.309
and I can feel the sadness and the depression

00:29:36.309 --> 00:29:39.970
and the despair of people that are now recently

00:29:39.970 --> 00:29:43.890
passed. I felt like I kind of needed to change

00:29:43.890 --> 00:29:46.730
the course of where I was focusing and I just

00:29:46.730 --> 00:29:50.930
immediately like looked up and to my right and

00:29:50.930 --> 00:29:54.329
lo and behold, there are these two entities up

00:29:54.329 --> 00:29:58.240
there. Looking back, they didn't have male or

00:29:58.240 --> 00:30:02.680
female parts, so to speak. They were light bodies,

00:30:03.039 --> 00:30:06.660
just like the cocoon artist named Alex Gray,

00:30:07.140 --> 00:30:09.720
the same kind of figure as what God was showing

00:30:09.720 --> 00:30:14.140
me originally. But they're up here in this space,

00:30:14.140 --> 00:30:17.000
I guess. I look and they're the ones that are

00:30:17.000 --> 00:30:19.700
now trying to console these people that are in

00:30:19.700 --> 00:30:22.359
the in -between. I remember them having very

00:30:22.359 --> 00:30:26.940
graceful peaceful, just this very spiritual,

00:30:27.079 --> 00:30:29.740
almost ominous energy. They're trying to talk

00:30:29.740 --> 00:30:32.099
to you like, you'll be okay, hun, you know, one

00:30:32.099 --> 00:30:34.339
at a time, you're going to be okay, let's show

00:30:34.339 --> 00:30:36.019
you what you're going to do in your next life.

00:30:36.519 --> 00:30:38.099
And, you know, they're just really trying to

00:30:38.099 --> 00:30:40.359
help these people out in the in -between. And

00:30:40.359 --> 00:30:42.779
I'm just observing like, wow, this is really

00:30:42.779 --> 00:30:45.859
amazing to see the watch. Who are these people?

00:30:45.960 --> 00:30:48.299
Who are these helpers? And I just realized in

00:30:48.299 --> 00:30:50.700
that moment, like, wait a minute, this area.

00:30:51.849 --> 00:30:54.250
I've been here before, that's how I knew to come

00:30:54.250 --> 00:30:57.569
here. I know those two entities up there and

00:30:57.569 --> 00:30:59.769
I kind of looked at one that seemed to be more

00:30:59.769 --> 00:31:02.369
male and I'm looking at him and he kind of looked

00:31:02.369 --> 00:31:05.609
over and gave me one of those like, what are

00:31:05.609 --> 00:31:08.470
you doing over here right now? You're not supposed

00:31:08.470 --> 00:31:12.309
to really be here. I felt like maybe I was...

00:31:13.109 --> 00:31:15.589
Exploring an abandoned mall. I'm not supposed

00:31:15.589 --> 00:31:17.710
to be here right now. And one of the security

00:31:17.710 --> 00:31:20.789
guards just busted me wandering around this abandoned

00:31:20.789 --> 00:31:23.630
mall. I'm like, I'm so sorry. I'm not even sure

00:31:23.630 --> 00:31:26.109
how I got up here. I'm just trying to get back

00:31:26.109 --> 00:31:29.730
in my body. And as I'm talking, he nudged over

00:31:29.730 --> 00:31:32.289
the other entity, which did seem, looking back,

00:31:32.390 --> 00:31:35.309
very female. He nudged the other entity who's

00:31:35.309 --> 00:31:39.369
busy helping these in -between people. She kinda

00:31:39.369 --> 00:31:41.789
looks over, looks at me again and was so surprised

00:31:41.789 --> 00:31:45.190
to see me like, hey, you're not, wait a minute.

00:31:45.650 --> 00:31:47.789
You knew you were gonna do this. You knew you

00:31:47.789 --> 00:31:51.250
were gonna be here. You gave me something to

00:31:51.250 --> 00:31:55.210
give you when this happened. Like almost as if

00:31:55.210 --> 00:31:59.170
my, before I was Brian, my soul chose this whole

00:31:59.170 --> 00:32:02.190
life and that I made plans with them that, hey,

00:32:02.250 --> 00:32:05.250
just in case I come back, like I'm planning on

00:32:05.250 --> 00:32:08.380
having a stroke. When I'm 43 and I'm going to

00:32:08.380 --> 00:32:11.759
come up here, here's this thing to give to me

00:32:11.759 --> 00:32:16.420
because I won't remember as Brian, but I need

00:32:16.420 --> 00:32:18.440
you to give this to me." And she's like, hey,

00:32:18.519 --> 00:32:20.779
I have something to give you. Let me go get it.

00:32:21.539 --> 00:32:24.759
So she kind of, I want to say dissipated, just

00:32:24.759 --> 00:32:28.660
moved off and just literally dissipated off to

00:32:28.660 --> 00:32:32.349
another area of space. I'm not sure really how

00:32:32.349 --> 00:32:34.329
to explain that it felt like she's going off

00:32:34.329 --> 00:32:37.250
to like a janitor's broom closet here and this

00:32:37.250 --> 00:32:40.309
isn't very familiar area i realized that i was

00:32:40.309 --> 00:32:43.130
once one of these entities they knew me they

00:32:43.130 --> 00:32:46.849
knew me the mail one even said a name. It wasn't

00:32:46.849 --> 00:32:50.079
brian it was the name of my soul. it felt so

00:32:50.079 --> 00:32:52.359
familiar like hey wow as soon as he said it i

00:32:52.359 --> 00:32:54.900
was like oh yeah that's the real me that's the

00:32:54.900 --> 00:32:57.799
extended energy my soul that's been here forever

00:32:57.799 --> 00:33:00.160
that's going to remain here like this one knows

00:33:00.160 --> 00:33:03.000
me like we're brothers like former co -workers

00:33:03.000 --> 00:33:05.059
that was the whole feeling that i was getting

00:33:05.059 --> 00:33:07.759
almost as if i was on maternity leave and just

00:33:07.759 --> 00:33:10.299
step back into my office and haven't been here

00:33:10.299 --> 00:33:12.380
in a while and everybody's like hey how you doing

00:33:12.380 --> 00:33:15.720
that was the feeling i got do you remember that

00:33:15.720 --> 00:33:18.990
name You know, I've stated it before, this memory

00:33:18.990 --> 00:33:23.089
thing, I wish. I do recall that it wasn't a word,

00:33:23.329 --> 00:33:25.670
like a name that we would say on earth. It's

00:33:25.670 --> 00:33:28.750
not like Michael, Dave, Steve, Bob. It was something

00:33:28.750 --> 00:33:31.650
way more than that. Almost like a different language.

00:33:32.230 --> 00:33:35.210
100 % a different language. Do you know who those

00:33:35.210 --> 00:33:38.569
two entities were? And that's a thing too. I

00:33:38.569 --> 00:33:41.470
knew they were, I want to call them former coworkers.

00:33:42.220 --> 00:33:44.539
Almost like if you walk back into an old job

00:33:44.539 --> 00:33:47.480
you had when you were 17 and that same old guys

00:33:47.480 --> 00:33:50.039
at the cash register But dang it. I don't remember

00:33:50.039 --> 00:33:51.920
your name. I remember your face I remember how

00:33:51.920 --> 00:33:54.440
you feel and I remember your emotions and mannerisms,

00:33:54.440 --> 00:33:57.380
but uh, what's your name again Steve? You know,

00:33:57.680 --> 00:33:59.700
it was kind of like that. Like there's just this

00:33:59.700 --> 00:34:03.339
weird memory loss Is she a block there that happened?

00:34:03.539 --> 00:34:05.839
So was there more before you came back into your

00:34:05.839 --> 00:34:10.719
body? This is the very end she walked off And

00:34:10.719 --> 00:34:13.699
the male version was like, hey, how's it going

00:34:13.699 --> 00:34:15.840
down there? How are things going? And I'm just

00:34:15.840 --> 00:34:18.440
like, man, I was panicking. I'm like, they're

00:34:18.440 --> 00:34:20.340
poisoning the water. They're poisoning the air.

00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:22.400
They're poisoning the food. We have to pay to

00:34:22.400 --> 00:34:25.400
be on there. There's evil people. They're taking

00:34:25.400 --> 00:34:27.300
advantage of children. There's still slavery

00:34:27.300 --> 00:34:29.460
down there, just giving a full mission report.

00:34:29.719 --> 00:34:31.820
I'm like, you need to send more people down here.

00:34:32.019 --> 00:34:34.380
We need help to fix and turn around this planet

00:34:34.380 --> 00:34:36.320
and raise the vibration of the planet. And he's

00:34:36.320 --> 00:34:39.199
like, we've been sending people there. There's

00:34:39.199 --> 00:34:41.219
plans. of spiritual warriors down there that

00:34:41.219 --> 00:34:43.980
you need to help wake up and I'm like well wait

00:34:43.980 --> 00:34:46.360
is that part of my mission and he's trying to

00:34:46.360 --> 00:34:49.079
tell me like yeah you're here to help wake up

00:34:49.079 --> 00:34:51.400
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00:36:30.929 --> 00:36:33.530
that was the gist of it. You know, I was kind

00:36:33.530 --> 00:36:34.989
of contemplating like, what do you mean? I'm

00:36:34.989 --> 00:36:37.130
here to raise the wood. And how am I going to

00:36:37.130 --> 00:36:41.349
what? And the female entity came back with this

00:36:41.349 --> 00:36:43.750
again, bigger than a bowling ball, smaller than

00:36:43.750 --> 00:36:47.030
a beach ball. It looked like inside it was kind

00:36:47.030 --> 00:36:50.469
of like a lava lamp. There's just reds and oranges

00:36:50.469 --> 00:36:53.670
and even a couple of purples and blacks and glitterly

00:36:53.670 --> 00:36:57.469
specks in this giant ball. And she's like, here,

00:36:57.670 --> 00:37:00.630
this is what you gave me to give to you because

00:37:00.630 --> 00:37:03.650
you knew this was going to happen. And this is

00:37:03.650 --> 00:37:05.969
what you gave me to give to you when this happened.

00:37:06.429 --> 00:37:09.889
And she kind of throws it at me. And in that

00:37:09.889 --> 00:37:12.949
moment, maybe not even a second and a half, I'm

00:37:12.949 --> 00:37:15.829
panicking because as a spirit body, I don't have

00:37:15.829 --> 00:37:18.730
arms. How am I going to catch this thing? I kind

00:37:18.730 --> 00:37:21.809
of remember a feeling of going like this, although

00:37:21.809 --> 00:37:24.530
I don't actually have arms. And it just hits

00:37:24.530 --> 00:37:28.699
me in the chest. And in that moment, my eyes

00:37:28.699 --> 00:37:32.199
actually open in the real world. And the orderly

00:37:32.199 --> 00:37:34.159
that picked me up off the floor, the original

00:37:34.159 --> 00:37:38.960
one, is rubbing on my sternum. And I kind of

00:37:38.960 --> 00:37:41.699
wake up. I look around for a second, like, is

00:37:41.699 --> 00:37:45.599
this real? Like, I was just in space with two

00:37:45.599 --> 00:37:49.019
crazy entities in space a minute ago. And I'm

00:37:49.019 --> 00:37:51.000
looking up at him, and he's like, hey, do you

00:37:51.000 --> 00:37:53.739
know your name? And I said my name, Brian Dusak.

00:37:54.030 --> 00:37:56.289
He's like, good, good, you can speak. He's like,

00:37:56.409 --> 00:37:59.070
do you know where you are? The G -rated version

00:37:59.070 --> 00:38:01.610
is, I better be in a flippin' hospital because

00:38:01.610 --> 00:38:04.090
I feel like crap. And he actually laughed a little

00:38:04.090 --> 00:38:06.309
bit because I had a sense of humor. He's like,

00:38:06.449 --> 00:38:09.650
sir, you just had an ischemic, I think it was

00:38:09.650 --> 00:38:12.630
first, and then we gave you the juice, and then

00:38:12.630 --> 00:38:15.769
a hemorrhagic stroke. He's like, the clot. that

00:38:15.769 --> 00:38:18.610
was in your brain just broke into three smaller

00:38:18.610 --> 00:38:21.250
ones. I'm not even sure how they knew that. Like,

00:38:21.250 --> 00:38:23.530
did they already put me through an MRI machine?

00:38:23.969 --> 00:38:26.969
How long was I out? I don't have answers to any

00:38:26.969 --> 00:38:30.630
of those questions. But he's like, the clots,

00:38:30.929 --> 00:38:33.090
one of them is traveling back to your brain.

00:38:33.409 --> 00:38:35.210
One's going to your heart and the other's going

00:38:35.210 --> 00:38:37.710
to your lungs. This is the knockout juice. They

00:38:37.710 --> 00:38:40.389
had an IV in me already. And he's like, this

00:38:40.389 --> 00:38:42.210
is the knockout juice. You're going to be out

00:38:42.210 --> 00:38:45.389
from eight to 12 hours. We're gonna crack open

00:38:45.389 --> 00:38:47.550
your ribs and we're gonna get that clap before

00:38:47.550 --> 00:38:51.469
it gets to your heart sir and immediately that

00:38:51.469 --> 00:38:53.889
same like telepathic voice that was coming from

00:38:53.889 --> 00:38:56.010
God originally when I was asking all the questions

00:38:56.010 --> 00:38:59.829
and getting answers was I Felt like he took over

00:38:59.829 --> 00:39:02.969
because I don't remember willing my hand to move

00:39:02.969 --> 00:39:05.849
but my hand went right on top of his hand as

00:39:05.849 --> 00:39:08.610
he's got the his thumb on that plunger to put

00:39:08.610 --> 00:39:11.650
in my IV lines and The words that came out of

00:39:11.650 --> 00:39:14.679
my mouth were no We're not having any surgery

00:39:14.679 --> 00:39:18.139
today. Take me to a private room. I know what

00:39:18.139 --> 00:39:21.340
I need to do." And I feel like I used the force

00:39:21.340 --> 00:39:24.760
on him because he took his thumb off the plunger,

00:39:24.880 --> 00:39:26.900
pulled it out of my line and he was shaking a

00:39:26.900 --> 00:39:29.000
little bit and you could see the hairs on his

00:39:29.000 --> 00:39:32.280
arm stood up and his pupils dilated as if something

00:39:32.280 --> 00:39:35.679
really affected him. He's like, I believe you.

00:39:35.840 --> 00:39:38.920
What do you need? And I said, take me to a private

00:39:38.920 --> 00:39:42.849
room. I said, I need water. I need aspirin. and

00:39:42.849 --> 00:39:45.590
all the citrus you can bring me. But mind you,

00:39:45.650 --> 00:39:47.670
it wasn't really me saying this. I'm observing

00:39:47.670 --> 00:39:50.889
my mouth saying it, but something more was in

00:39:50.889 --> 00:39:53.289
me at the time. Whether it was God speaking for

00:39:53.289 --> 00:39:56.750
me, my guardian angels, whatever that is, you

00:39:56.750 --> 00:39:59.230
could feel it in the room. There was a lot of

00:39:59.230 --> 00:40:02.190
like staticky energy in the room at this moment.

00:40:02.730 --> 00:40:05.769
And he's like, okay, okay, I believe you. He

00:40:05.769 --> 00:40:08.469
wheeled me to a private room. He told the nurse

00:40:08.469 --> 00:40:10.769
what was going on. He went off to go get those

00:40:10.769 --> 00:40:14.010
three items. I remember a few minutes later,

00:40:14.289 --> 00:40:16.150
Hillary Clinton's little sister came in and made

00:40:16.150 --> 00:40:18.989
me sign the release paperwork for responsibility

00:40:18.989 --> 00:40:21.610
because I'm denying surgery. They made me sign

00:40:21.610 --> 00:40:24.670
three or four of those. He comes back in, he's

00:40:24.670 --> 00:40:27.130
wheeling a cart, and there's two pitchers of

00:40:27.130 --> 00:40:30.250
water, two packets of aspirin, and a bowl of

00:40:30.250 --> 00:40:32.929
grapefruit, limes, lemon, and oranges. And he

00:40:32.929 --> 00:40:34.590
just kind of pushed it up next to me. He's like,

00:40:34.630 --> 00:40:37.449
here you go. I didn't even blink. I ripped open

00:40:37.449 --> 00:40:39.889
the aspirin. I started crushing it with the pitcher.

00:40:40.110 --> 00:40:43.230
I pulled it off the table and I had it like this.

00:40:43.269 --> 00:40:45.769
And I remember them looking at me like they thought

00:40:45.769 --> 00:40:48.590
I was going to sniff it. I put it in the water

00:40:48.590 --> 00:40:51.769
and just started chugging that. And then I started

00:40:51.769 --> 00:40:54.250
peeling the limes, the lemons, the grapefruits,

00:40:54.429 --> 00:40:56.809
but I wasn't eating the fruit body. I wanted

00:40:56.809 --> 00:40:59.670
nothing more. You could call it a crave, but

00:40:59.670 --> 00:41:02.510
it was more than a crave. I needed the peels.

00:41:02.969 --> 00:41:06.250
The peels, which is not very tasty. This is one

00:41:06.250 --> 00:41:08.150
of the hardest things I can recall ever having

00:41:08.150 --> 00:41:10.670
in my body, plus the aspirin. It's like brushing

00:41:10.670 --> 00:41:12.809
your teeth after drinking, or drinking orange

00:41:12.809 --> 00:41:15.929
juice after brushing your teeth. It's very...

00:41:15.929 --> 00:41:19.289
They thought you were nuts. Let's face it. Nobody

00:41:19.289 --> 00:41:22.969
does this. This is crazy. Denying heart surgery

00:41:22.969 --> 00:41:25.510
and just saying, no, I'll take the citrus peels

00:41:25.510 --> 00:41:28.719
and aspirin water instead. I made it through

00:41:28.719 --> 00:41:31.900
like a lime. I made it through a lot of the grapefruit

00:41:31.900 --> 00:41:34.440
and I did eat a little bit of the fruit and I'm

00:41:34.440 --> 00:41:37.340
just chugging water and mushing this horrible

00:41:37.340 --> 00:41:39.739
peels in my mouth. And I remember, you know,

00:41:39.739 --> 00:41:43.719
I've got heart monitors on me and I can't like

00:41:43.719 --> 00:41:46.159
mimic what the sound was, but my heartbeat went

00:41:46.159 --> 00:41:48.639
very irregular for a minute there. It was already

00:41:48.639 --> 00:41:54.519
rough, but it was just doing something. And I

00:41:54.519 --> 00:41:56.760
remember hearing the voice one more time. and

00:41:56.760 --> 00:42:00.280
it was cough hard, cough now, and don't stop

00:42:00.280 --> 00:42:02.500
coughing. And mind you, I still got peels in

00:42:02.500 --> 00:42:04.980
my mouth, so I tried to wash them down and just

00:42:04.980 --> 00:42:06.940
coughing and coughing and pushing and coughing

00:42:06.940 --> 00:42:09.320
and coughing. Took another sip of the water and

00:42:09.320 --> 00:42:12.539
just trying to get more peels apart as I'm coughing

00:42:12.539 --> 00:42:16.179
my heart out. And son of a gun, maybe, I don't

00:42:16.179 --> 00:42:17.679
know, I want to say somewhere around the seventh

00:42:17.679 --> 00:42:21.420
to tenth, twelfth cough, I felt this real crazy

00:42:21.420 --> 00:42:24.500
feeling in my heart. It was a pop. And then a

00:42:24.500 --> 00:42:27.199
squish I compared to like maybe if a tiny jellyfish

00:42:27.199 --> 00:42:29.739
was in my arteries because I felt the pop of

00:42:29.739 --> 00:42:34.079
its head and then the tail behind it. And I remember

00:42:34.079 --> 00:42:36.880
my heartbeats going crazy. I'm still coughing.

00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:39.000
I'm still trying to chew the little pieces of

00:42:39.000 --> 00:42:41.780
my mouth. And then there was another squish as

00:42:41.780 --> 00:42:43.860
if it had turned around or something. And then

00:42:43.860 --> 00:42:47.519
a pop as is coming out. I guess that's your right

00:42:47.519 --> 00:42:49.800
ventricle. I'm not sure. I'm not a scientist

00:42:49.800 --> 00:42:52.760
or a doctor, but. I just passed that blood clot

00:42:52.760 --> 00:42:56.400
through my heart while I'm chewing and drinking

00:42:56.400 --> 00:42:59.380
the aspirin water. And I think the whole point

00:42:59.380 --> 00:43:03.059
was to maybe break down that clot so that it

00:43:03.059 --> 00:43:06.440
can pass through my heart without killing me

00:43:06.440 --> 00:43:08.320
or getting stuck. I guess that's what happens

00:43:08.320 --> 00:43:10.679
when you have a heart attack. I remember the

00:43:10.679 --> 00:43:13.079
doctors looking at me. Because the surgeon that

00:43:13.079 --> 00:43:15.079
was supposed to do my heart surgery came in the

00:43:15.079 --> 00:43:16.900
room during this time. I forgot to mention that.

00:43:17.099 --> 00:43:18.619
He came in the room and he's trying to tell me

00:43:18.619 --> 00:43:20.599
like, you need it. We should have cut you open

00:43:20.599 --> 00:43:23.320
moments ago. You need to have the surgery. You're

00:43:23.320 --> 00:43:26.079
going to have a heart attack. And I'm just, nope,

00:43:26.179 --> 00:43:28.619
nope, you know, and drinking the aspirin water

00:43:28.619 --> 00:43:30.900
and chewing on these citrus peels. You know,

00:43:30.980 --> 00:43:32.860
the orderlies kind of looking at me dumbfounded

00:43:32.860 --> 00:43:34.840
like, well, I've never seen anything like that

00:43:34.840 --> 00:43:37.420
before. He, you know, he was pretty freaked out.

00:43:37.539 --> 00:43:39.989
Two other nurses are just like, Did that just

00:43:39.989 --> 00:43:42.469
happen? I remember they were getting the defibrillator

00:43:42.469 --> 00:43:44.809
paddles ready while I was coughing. They were

00:43:44.809 --> 00:43:47.250
ready to jumpstart me again in case I had passed

00:43:47.250 --> 00:43:50.510
out. A few minutes had gone by and I remember

00:43:50.510 --> 00:43:54.949
feeling that same similar pop wish, but yet I

00:43:54.949 --> 00:43:57.429
could tell the clot was getting smaller. That

00:43:57.429 --> 00:43:59.960
first time it kind of hurt a little bit. But

00:43:59.960 --> 00:44:02.619
now the second time I felt it more like a twinge

00:44:02.619 --> 00:44:04.860
and then after it came around the third time

00:44:04.860 --> 00:44:07.619
It was much less of a twinge. So whatever I was

00:44:07.619 --> 00:44:09.699
doing was breaking up this cloud. Thank God,

00:44:09.699 --> 00:44:13.780
you know pretty much at that point They put me

00:44:13.780 --> 00:44:17.000
on observation for I think was three more days

00:44:17.000 --> 00:44:19.500
Then I signed some paperwork and they released

00:44:19.500 --> 00:44:24.450
me So no long -term effects from the stroke No

00:44:24.450 --> 00:44:27.150
paralyzed or anything there were two minor things

00:44:27.150 --> 00:44:29.989
that happened my left eye had a slight blind

00:44:29.989 --> 00:44:32.570
spot I'd say about the size of a quarter that

00:44:32.570 --> 00:44:37.050
dissipated after time and Then my left arm my

00:44:37.050 --> 00:44:40.550
thumb was kind of I'd say numb or stiff I don't

00:44:40.550 --> 00:44:42.530
know if that was like a nerve damage or something

00:44:42.530 --> 00:44:45.710
But it it would start from my thumb went up around

00:44:45.710 --> 00:44:48.690
my wrist to my elbow back behind and then into

00:44:48.690 --> 00:44:51.880
my back muscles it was numb like literally you

00:44:51.880 --> 00:44:54.179
could tap it you could feel there's a sensation

00:44:54.179 --> 00:44:57.599
but it's it's kind of a numbing strange feeling

00:44:57.599 --> 00:45:00.320
you know i stretched that out started taking

00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:02.480
electrolytes and things of that nature to to

00:45:02.480 --> 00:45:05.260
help it eventually went away the blind spot took

00:45:05.260 --> 00:45:09.329
about six seven months to finally resolve I feel

00:45:09.329 --> 00:45:11.489
like we need to put out some kind of a medical

00:45:11.489 --> 00:45:14.389
disclaimer here. This isn't health advice. If

00:45:14.389 --> 00:45:16.829
you're having a stroke, we're not giving medical

00:45:16.829 --> 00:45:20.349
advice on what to do with it. This was Brian's

00:45:20.349 --> 00:45:25.570
inspiration period and it worked for you. I just

00:45:25.570 --> 00:45:30.789
feel like I need to jump in and say, I lost track

00:45:30.789 --> 00:45:33.730
of how many things in your experience are different

00:45:33.730 --> 00:45:37.989
than most NDE's. There's so many. as you probably

00:45:37.989 --> 00:45:41.170
know. First I want to just go through some of

00:45:41.170 --> 00:45:43.210
them and maybe you can elaborate if you feel

00:45:43.210 --> 00:45:46.269
like on some of them. Leaving your body, I have

00:45:46.269 --> 00:45:50.090
some notes here, a ripping noise and a pop feeling.

00:45:51.130 --> 00:45:54.110
No one's ever told me that before. Can you explain

00:45:54.110 --> 00:45:58.449
that any more than that? I actually have a sound

00:45:58.449 --> 00:46:02.130
that I was listening to some music and there

00:46:02.130 --> 00:46:07.949
is a sound that I found that That I actually

00:46:07.949 --> 00:46:11.469
have Saved that I'll share with you. Maybe you

00:46:11.469 --> 00:46:14.550
can reshare it in the podcast I believe it's

00:46:14.550 --> 00:46:17.329
called a transmission from Mars. The album is

00:46:17.329 --> 00:46:21.190
called planetary medicine and it's by a DJ group

00:46:21.190 --> 00:46:26.130
called Mercury M -U -R -K -U -R -Y but Transmission

00:46:26.130 --> 00:46:28.510
from Mars I believe is what it's called but the

00:46:28.510 --> 00:46:31.010
first like 30 seconds of that if it was condensed

00:46:31.010 --> 00:46:34.329
into like two That's literally exactly what I

00:46:34.329 --> 00:46:36.449
heard, but I'll find it for you All right, yeah

00:46:36.449 --> 00:46:39.550
send me that. Another thing that's very unusual

00:46:39.550 --> 00:46:43.889
is that after leaving your body you felt panic

00:46:43.889 --> 00:46:47.309
for a long time. Most people all of a sudden

00:46:47.309 --> 00:46:51.449
feel peace because their pain is gone and other

00:46:51.449 --> 00:46:54.630
things from this world and this physical body

00:46:54.630 --> 00:46:58.090
are gone and so they usually feel peace and it's

00:46:58.090 --> 00:47:01.110
so, I'm not going to say weird, it's unusual.

00:47:01.500 --> 00:47:05.460
That you felt panic yet. It sounds like it wasn't

00:47:05.460 --> 00:47:09.280
much later that you described to me love peace

00:47:09.280 --> 00:47:14.179
calmness and security Well time is kind of different

00:47:14.179 --> 00:47:16.599
there for sure, you know as I'm watching things

00:47:16.599 --> 00:47:20.699
happen maybe a Minute occurred as I'm watching

00:47:20.699 --> 00:47:22.619
them, you know, pick me up put me on the gurney

00:47:22.619 --> 00:47:26.659
and cart me off But yeah For that minute, it

00:47:26.659 --> 00:47:30.199
seemed like an eternity as a spirit. And yes,

00:47:30.199 --> 00:47:33.280
uh, it was extensive, like yes, complete panic,

00:47:33.539 --> 00:47:37.119
complete disarray. There was regret that I didn't

00:47:37.119 --> 00:47:39.940
do more. There was a lot of crazy feelings for

00:47:39.940 --> 00:47:42.699
that first minute, but luckily the big guy showed

00:47:42.699 --> 00:47:46.340
up and calmed me down. All right, we'll get to

00:47:46.340 --> 00:47:49.119
the big guy here in a minute. First, I want to

00:47:49.119 --> 00:47:52.659
ask your opinion on something. You felt the young

00:47:52.659 --> 00:47:58.059
Asian girl, the Scottish man and the young man

00:47:58.059 --> 00:48:01.360
who had taken the pills. What do you think it

00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:06.199
was the purpose in you having this empathic kind

00:48:06.199 --> 00:48:10.079
of experience with them? If you would have asked

00:48:10.079 --> 00:48:13.519
me early on, I wouldn't have an answer. But I

00:48:13.519 --> 00:48:16.179
really thought about that after talking to a

00:48:16.179 --> 00:48:19.159
couple other people about my experience. A lot

00:48:19.159 --> 00:48:21.699
have said that there's a very good chance that

00:48:21.699 --> 00:48:27.139
I was prior to this. one of those types of entities

00:48:27.139 --> 00:48:30.719
that was helping people in the in -between. Because

00:48:30.719 --> 00:48:33.940
A, I knew exactly how to get there. B, there

00:48:33.940 --> 00:48:36.280
was the familiarity of being there when I got

00:48:36.280 --> 00:48:40.340
there. C, the two entities completely recognized

00:48:40.340 --> 00:48:44.940
me and I did recognize them. But I think that

00:48:44.940 --> 00:48:50.300
was just, it was a spark of a memory as my larger

00:48:50.300 --> 00:48:54.139
soul was just remembering. that it's there, that

00:48:54.139 --> 00:48:57.719
this is a place that I've been before. That was

00:48:57.719 --> 00:49:00.760
my part of my job. I think in the spirit realm

00:49:00.760 --> 00:49:03.559
is being one of the consolers that was helping

00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:06.340
walk people through after just passing away.

00:49:06.460 --> 00:49:08.880
So I was kind of like tapping into that, that

00:49:08.880 --> 00:49:12.659
memory or that ability or that job, so to speak.

00:49:13.340 --> 00:49:16.219
So you felt like that was your role with those

00:49:16.219 --> 00:49:19.880
two entities, the male and female were people

00:49:19.880 --> 00:49:23.079
that you had for lack of a better term. worked

00:49:23.079 --> 00:49:27.719
with or served with or whatever was helping people

00:49:27.719 --> 00:49:32.940
pass over to the other side. Yes. Okay. That's

00:49:32.940 --> 00:49:36.239
super interesting. I feel like they were shorthanded,

00:49:36.440 --> 00:49:38.900
meaning that there might've been a larger group

00:49:38.900 --> 00:49:41.639
of entities like this, and that some of us kind

00:49:41.639 --> 00:49:44.820
of chose to come down here on earth in the 3D

00:49:44.820 --> 00:49:47.880
and kind of left them with more work to do, if

00:49:47.880 --> 00:49:50.480
that makes sense. So you feel like that'll be

00:49:50.480 --> 00:49:53.800
your responsibility again when you die someday

00:49:53.800 --> 00:49:56.900
I wish I knew the answer to that I mean I would

00:49:56.900 --> 00:49:59.099
definitely go back there and and help and keep

00:49:59.099 --> 00:50:02.139
doing that but I I don't know when the time comes

00:50:02.139 --> 00:50:05.300
am I gonna pick to come back and You know, maybe

00:50:05.300 --> 00:50:07.780
still raise the vibration of the planet or turn

00:50:07.780 --> 00:50:10.900
something else around or volunteer hold another

00:50:10.900 --> 00:50:13.809
dimension or planet. I wish I knew that's the

00:50:13.809 --> 00:50:16.070
whole exciting part of it. I'm no longer scared

00:50:16.070 --> 00:50:18.389
to die. I'm definitely looking forward to my

00:50:18.389 --> 00:50:21.949
next mission. And that's part of what I was getting

00:50:21.949 --> 00:50:24.329
at, but let's talk about that mission for a second.

00:50:24.869 --> 00:50:28.250
How in the world can one person raise this vibrational

00:50:28.250 --> 00:50:31.449
level, as you put it, of the planet? Have you

00:50:31.449 --> 00:50:34.190
figured any of that out yet? It sounds way, way,

00:50:34.190 --> 00:50:38.230
way overwhelming. I've been hypnotized. I've

00:50:38.230 --> 00:50:41.559
gone to different Spiritual people, shamans,

00:50:41.739 --> 00:50:44.920
ask that question. I've talked to psychics. They've

00:50:44.920 --> 00:50:46.599
all said that's something I got to find within

00:50:46.599 --> 00:50:49.679
myself. The more I think about it, some are saying

00:50:49.679 --> 00:50:52.300
that just by being me and doing the things that

00:50:52.300 --> 00:50:55.159
I have done in this lifetime are enough, but

00:50:55.159 --> 00:51:01.199
I have this overwhelming, undying, nagging feeling

00:51:01.199 --> 00:51:05.139
that I need to be doing more. How? I feel like

00:51:05.139 --> 00:51:07.360
since that's happened, I wasn't always the nicest

00:51:07.360 --> 00:51:09.699
guy. I wasn't a bad guy, but I wasn't always

00:51:09.699 --> 00:51:13.340
so jovial or so peaceful or so knowledgeable

00:51:13.340 --> 00:51:15.860
on things. And I feel like now that this has

00:51:15.860 --> 00:51:20.059
happened to me that I'm trying to, I guess, reflect.

00:51:20.300 --> 00:51:22.659
the entities that I saw there. I want to be more

00:51:22.659 --> 00:51:25.300
jovial, be more kind, be more happy, be more

00:51:25.300 --> 00:51:28.400
helpful, you know, helping literally raise, you

00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:30.880
know, when I drive for a living, I pick up people

00:51:30.880 --> 00:51:33.260
for public transportation. I used to do Lyft

00:51:33.260 --> 00:51:36.219
and Uber, now it's called ViaTrans, which is

00:51:36.219 --> 00:51:38.579
picking up the public. When they get in and somebody

00:51:38.579 --> 00:51:40.820
gets in and they're just, they go, hey, how are

00:51:40.820 --> 00:51:42.539
you doing today? You don't sound so good. You

00:51:42.539 --> 00:51:44.679
know, what's going on? How can I help? You know,

00:51:45.119 --> 00:51:47.360
other people with health advice and things that

00:51:47.360 --> 00:51:50.099
I've gone through and the intermittent fasting,

00:51:50.300 --> 00:51:52.480
the parasite cleanses and trying to help each

00:51:52.480 --> 00:51:55.940
individual as I go. And I feel like at least

00:51:55.940 --> 00:51:58.840
I can help one or two or five or 10 people in

00:51:58.840 --> 00:52:01.500
a day. That's a little bit, but I know I need

00:52:01.500 --> 00:52:03.659
to be doing a lot more to be honest, not to take

00:52:03.659 --> 00:52:07.119
anything away from from your whole show. I want

00:52:07.119 --> 00:52:09.619
to do a podcast. I'm just in a weird financial

00:52:09.619 --> 00:52:11.739
bind to where I have to work seven days a week

00:52:11.739 --> 00:52:14.280
right now and haven't found the time. But I feel

00:52:14.280 --> 00:52:18.579
like if I have, you know, coming as an NDE experiencer,

00:52:18.780 --> 00:52:22.820
I would like to have other NDE experiencers on,

00:52:23.460 --> 00:52:26.219
but from another aspect to where like we can

00:52:26.219 --> 00:52:29.139
compare notes of things, the way we felt things,

00:52:29.199 --> 00:52:32.960
how we interacted, how the telepathy happened,

00:52:33.059 --> 00:52:35.880
how that ripping or popping noise happened, you

00:52:35.880 --> 00:52:39.099
know, just how it felt to not be using your normal

00:52:39.099 --> 00:52:43.079
physical senses and using your spiritual senses.

00:52:43.539 --> 00:52:46.409
I feel like Like how I had a mission, I feel

00:52:46.409 --> 00:52:49.090
like a lot of people have different missions.

00:52:49.130 --> 00:52:52.869
And if we were able to kind of conglomerate and

00:52:52.869 --> 00:52:55.349
get together, you'll see how different parts

00:52:55.349 --> 00:52:57.630
of the puzzle actually start to fit together.

00:52:58.250 --> 00:53:00.230
And there's a lot of healers out there. There's

00:53:00.230 --> 00:53:02.809
a lot of people that know they're healers that

00:53:02.809 --> 00:53:05.570
are a little scared. Maybe they're on the religious

00:53:05.570 --> 00:53:08.309
end and, you know, thinking about psychic things

00:53:08.309 --> 00:53:12.110
or healing or even meditating is evil, right?

00:53:12.360 --> 00:53:14.900
but to show people like, hey, I used to be like

00:53:14.900 --> 00:53:17.800
that too. And, you know, look at us now, you

00:53:17.800 --> 00:53:21.260
know, there's healers out here. Let's find our

00:53:21.260 --> 00:53:23.139
missions and how it all fits together and help

00:53:23.139 --> 00:53:27.119
each other out. I hope that made sense. Oh, absolutely.

00:53:27.519 --> 00:53:30.559
And being on this podcast today, you're reaching

00:53:30.559 --> 00:53:33.380
thousands of people. So you're off to a good

00:53:33.380 --> 00:53:37.159
start on that. Sometimes those things that feel

00:53:37.159 --> 00:53:40.420
like a mission, it's not like we can define them

00:53:40.420 --> 00:53:44.179
ahead of time. And we can say, oh, that's exactly

00:53:44.179 --> 00:53:47.900
what I need to do. But we follow along with little

00:53:47.900 --> 00:53:50.199
promptings, little feelings that we're getting.

00:53:50.780 --> 00:53:53.820
And after a while, we can look back and say,

00:53:54.039 --> 00:53:56.920
ah, look what I've done. Now I can do even more

00:53:56.920 --> 00:54:00.760
of that. And you may experience something like

00:54:00.760 --> 00:54:03.860
that. You know, there's times where we can look

00:54:03.860 --> 00:54:08.880
back and say, wow, four years of doing this podcast

00:54:08.880 --> 00:54:12.840
and reaching You know hundreds of thousands and

00:54:12.840 --> 00:54:16.119
a couple of million people so far Hopefully that's

00:54:16.119 --> 00:54:18.619
done some good in the world and you're a piece

00:54:18.619 --> 00:54:22.260
of that So thank you for that. It's all about

00:54:22.260 --> 00:54:25.219
spreading hope and that's what this show is about

00:54:25.219 --> 00:54:27.639
and that's what your message I think is about

00:54:27.639 --> 00:54:31.139
Last thing before I let you go. I want to talk

00:54:31.139 --> 00:54:33.639
a little bit more about your discussion with

00:54:33.639 --> 00:54:38.780
God I find it so peculiar That and did you call

00:54:38.780 --> 00:54:43.190
God? an it or a he or a she or a how did you

00:54:43.190 --> 00:54:47.070
refer pronoun wise? I feel like God is light

00:54:47.070 --> 00:54:50.590
and consciousness so therefore I have been trying

00:54:50.590 --> 00:54:53.670
not to put it as just a male figure like we've

00:54:53.670 --> 00:54:55.889
been taught through religion. It's so much more

00:54:55.889 --> 00:54:58.829
than that. So much more than that. I have been

00:54:58.829 --> 00:55:03.699
saying it because saying he although it showed

00:55:03.699 --> 00:55:07.860
me a malish entity, it's so much more. We relate

00:55:07.860 --> 00:55:12.039
that to a human form. It was pure consciousness.

00:55:12.059 --> 00:55:14.340
It was just showing me a human form, I think,

00:55:14.579 --> 00:55:17.920
so that I could relate to it, if that makes sense.

00:55:18.960 --> 00:55:21.639
Yeah, I almost laughed. I thought it was funny

00:55:21.639 --> 00:55:26.079
when you asked, are you God? And God said, most

00:55:26.079 --> 00:55:29.980
of the time. It definitely has a sense of humor.

00:55:30.329 --> 00:55:34.489
It just reminds me a little bit of, we've been

00:55:34.489 --> 00:55:37.150
talking about some old movies today too. There's

00:55:37.150 --> 00:55:43.050
an old movie called Oh God. George Burns? So

00:55:43.050 --> 00:55:47.110
yes, Oh God starring George Burns and John Denver,

00:55:47.309 --> 00:55:51.369
the singer. That guy, okay. I know you're a little

00:55:51.369 --> 00:55:54.210
young for John Denver, but you've made reference

00:55:54.210 --> 00:55:56.130
to some other older things here today. Yeah,

00:55:56.130 --> 00:55:58.869
my mom definitely liked John Denver. Yeah. He

00:55:58.869 --> 00:56:01.349
was in the movie, but that The thing is that

00:56:01.349 --> 00:56:04.730
this reminded me of is what you said is George

00:56:04.730 --> 00:56:07.530
Burns playing God was just so very matter -of

00:56:07.530 --> 00:56:10.650
-fact like oh, yeah, okay You know, yes this

00:56:10.650 --> 00:56:13.769
or no that it was very surprising I expected

00:56:13.769 --> 00:56:17.489
a more of like an ethereal royalty kind of vibe

00:56:17.489 --> 00:56:19.670
as you would picture going through like the Bible

00:56:19.670 --> 00:56:21.989
or something You know old man in the clouds with

00:56:21.989 --> 00:56:24.710
the wings and you know some sort of chariot perhaps

00:56:24.710 --> 00:56:27.190
playing a harp I guess I don't know with his

00:56:27.190 --> 00:56:29.369
walking stick, but it was nothing like that for

00:56:29.369 --> 00:56:32.050
me But then again, after doing some research,

00:56:32.409 --> 00:56:34.550
other people based off of their belief system,

00:56:34.969 --> 00:56:38.750
they see what it is they believe in. And I think

00:56:38.750 --> 00:56:42.110
that God, that's what you want to call it, supreme

00:56:42.110 --> 00:56:45.730
being, whatever it is, shows us that just so

00:56:45.730 --> 00:56:48.329
that we don't panic. If a Christian all of a

00:56:48.329 --> 00:56:51.230
sudden saw Krishna, he'd probably be pretty dang

00:56:51.230 --> 00:56:54.349
surprised. You know what I mean? If a Jewish

00:56:54.349 --> 00:56:56.389
person saw a Buddhist monk, they'd be pretty

00:56:56.389 --> 00:57:00.230
surprised. So I think they purposely kind of

00:57:00.230 --> 00:57:02.389
try to relate into your belief system, which

00:57:02.389 --> 00:57:05.989
is now why I understand it is omnipresent. It

00:57:05.989 --> 00:57:07.929
is all knowing. It is all seeing. It's all of

00:57:07.929 --> 00:57:10.469
the above. If God is omnipresent, he's created

00:57:10.469 --> 00:57:15.150
all the things. And I'm not going to spend time

00:57:15.150 --> 00:57:17.789
telling you much about my beliefs. That's not

00:57:17.789 --> 00:57:21.099
what this show is about, but Here's the commonality

00:57:21.099 --> 00:57:23.940
that I see with all of these. When people describe

00:57:23.940 --> 00:57:28.519
some things that you did, love, peace, calm,

00:57:29.119 --> 00:57:32.099
security, serenity, bliss, whatever kinds of

00:57:32.099 --> 00:57:37.280
adjectives we want to use, to me, those are descriptions

00:57:37.280 --> 00:57:40.619
of God, because that's where all of those feelings

00:57:40.619 --> 00:57:44.699
are coming from. 100%. I agree with that. All

00:57:44.699 --> 00:57:48.230
right. Thank you for that. And I appreciate you

00:57:48.230 --> 00:57:50.389
spending time with me today. This has been good

00:57:50.389 --> 00:57:54.110
fun. I've got a new friend with you, Brian, and

00:57:54.110 --> 00:57:56.829
let's keep in touch. We'll circle back in a while.

00:57:57.250 --> 00:57:59.829
And if you want help launching a podcast, I'm

00:57:59.829 --> 00:58:02.489
happy to be there for you. If I could state real

00:58:02.489 --> 00:58:05.010
quick that I made a Facebook group. It's called

00:58:05.010 --> 00:58:09.090
Doozies Quest, D -O -O -Z -I -E -S Quest, where

00:58:09.090 --> 00:58:11.690
I've posted this. in a long form where I wrote

00:58:11.690 --> 00:58:14.070
it out, people can interact with me. So if anybody

00:58:14.070 --> 00:58:17.030
knows how to remember some of the things or wants

00:58:17.030 --> 00:58:19.829
to hypnotize me and or give me a reading, like

00:58:19.829 --> 00:58:22.650
I'd love for somebody to reach out and other

00:58:22.650 --> 00:58:24.989
spiritual warriors that realize that they've

00:58:24.989 --> 00:58:26.849
got something and they're trying to wake up and

00:58:26.849 --> 00:58:29.130
maybe we could all work together on this. Feel

00:58:29.130 --> 00:58:31.789
free to join the group and communicate with me.

00:58:32.010 --> 00:58:33.550
All right. You send me that link. I'll stick

00:58:33.550 --> 00:58:35.690
it down on the show notes so everybody can find

00:58:35.690 --> 00:58:38.510
it. Yeah. And there are groups that you may want

00:58:38.510 --> 00:58:43.449
to connect with, like Ions, where a lot of experiencers

00:58:43.449 --> 00:58:47.710
find a lot of peace and understanding by mingling

00:58:47.710 --> 00:58:50.190
with other people that have been through similar

00:58:50.190 --> 00:58:51.929
experiences. I missed last year's meeting, but

00:58:51.929 --> 00:58:53.710
I'm going to do my best to get to this year's

00:58:53.710 --> 00:58:56.829
meeting. Seattle this year. That's a haul from

00:58:56.829 --> 00:59:00.210
Texas, but I'll figure it out. All right, Brian,

00:59:00.369 --> 00:59:03.840
take care of my friend. Thanks again for listening

00:59:03.840 --> 00:59:06.300
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