5 Year Old Drowns, Meets Her Guardian Angel

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From the time that they pronounced me dead was

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a good 45 minutes. They cut my clothes and then

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they paddled my heart, my heart had stopped and

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I could see people screaming and crying but I

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didn't realize that was actually my physical

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body because I was somewhere else. The only thing

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that I could feel if you could imagine absolute

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love and peace there wasn't anything else to

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be felt. I was greeted by people I'd known in

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the past. I'm back home again. Incredibly safe

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and felt at home. Welcome, welcome to Round Trip

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Death, everybody, and a special and warm welcome

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for Marilyn Yvette coming to us from Canada.

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How are you today, Marilyn? I'm doing great.

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Thanks for having me today, Eric. Thank you for

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being patient with me. Our listeners don't know

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what we're talking about. I was not off to a

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great start today. But what part of Canada do

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you live in? So I'm just north of Toronto. So

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I think a lot of people have maybe heard of Toronto.

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So it's kind of just heading into the eastern

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region of the country. So up there above the

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Great Lakes somewhere? Yeah, Lake Ontario is

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close. Okay. It's me pretending like I know geography,

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which... Which I don't. I wasn't too bad at it

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back in eighth grade, but didn't stick with me

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as well. Before we jump into your near -death

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experience, which is an interesting one. We talk

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about drowning from time to time, but we'll get

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to that in a minute. I want our listeners to

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get to know you. Tell us a little bit about you.

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So I am. I'm a mother and I worked mostly in

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the business sector and that's where my school

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and college and university is based in business

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programs, but I have been also marrying that

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up with a spiritual path along the way. So I

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have a lot of things like holistic health practitioner,

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cognitive behavioral therapist, spiritual life

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coach. So the list goes on. I just finished a

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certification for an end of life doula. So now

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I'm looking at marrying up the business aspect

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with the spiritual aspects and just rolling into

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that full time. Yeah, we've had a handful of

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end of life doulos on the show. You have? Yeah,

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I think it is fabulous. Most people have never

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heard of it. I hadn't heard of it until we had

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the first one on a while back. But it just it

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makes so much sense because we don't know how

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to deal with death. We don't even like to talk

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about it. Yeah, and it's I for me the passion

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is helping them not fear death and what happens

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after and helping the family accept it and Understand

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what's happening after so that's where my passion

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lies there Yeah, maybe someday we'll have a whole

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death doula show but in the meantime We have

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the happy ending deaths where people come back

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Yeah, so let's get into that and this happened

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to you when you were a child Take us back. You

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were only what five years old Yeah, approximately

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five years old and kind of lived in a cottage

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country, a town beautiful, much like where I

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live now. It was just one of those, you know,

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beautiful sunny days. You could feel the sun

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just kissing your skin and just the sounds of

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summer at this public beach that we live close

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to. So I was there with my sister and my mom

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and we wanted to go swimming, but we weren't

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over where the lifeguard and, you know, they

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have the safety buoys, so you don't go beyond

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that. And usually, you know, the sand is leveling

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up so that it slowly goes down to swim. So where

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we were, it just kind of dropped down and I was

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just little. And I'm not sure I even was as drunk,

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for me to be honest, but I was swimming away

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and just frolicking and having a great time.

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And then all of a sudden, I was under the water

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and I don't know if it was a bit of an undertow

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or something, but I just couldn't get to the

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surface at all. I was struggling and I was trying

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to... you know, swim my little heart out. And

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then I really started to panic because I couldn't

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breathe and I'd been under there for a bit. Just

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then when I was at the height of feeling, you

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know, absolutely mortified that I wasn't going

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to make it, I heard somebody say, Marilyn, it's

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OK. You're going to be OK. I'm here to help you.

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So I opened my eyes and I looked and there was

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this angel. So although we were both underwater

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at the time, she was completely dry and she had

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very long, long curly hair like me, but her hair

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was much longer and she was, you know, maybe

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early teen looking. And when she spoke to me,

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she didn't move her lips, but I could hear her.

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It was just, she was so serene that she calmed

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me immediately. The whole water was all lit up

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in like this yellow kind of glow. But the feeling

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of being like wrapped in a warm soft link and

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feeling safe and secure I just Relaxed and so

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as she was saying come to me. It's okay Come

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to me. It's okay, and she was doing this I could

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feel myself going with her the next recollection

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I have is Waking up in the hospital and the nurse

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giving me heck because I had soiled the bed with

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all the water, I guess. But it was in the newspaper,

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and I guess I was in there for two weeks. So

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it was, I guess, a pretty big deal. But I've

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never forgotten it. I've never forgot a single

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detail, how she looked, how she sounded. And

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then my daughter had an interaction with her

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much later. And this person had said, or this

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angel had said, I'm here protecting your mom.

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Don't be afraid. and I lived in the house I had,

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I think it was on an old burial ground because

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there was a lot of stuff going on. I'd never

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described how she looked or anything, but she

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described her to a T, to me, and it was the same

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angel I had seen based on the descriptions. Okay,

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some people would ask, how do you remember something

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very well when you were only five years old?

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I don't remember much from when I was five. Well,

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that's a great question. And I think I would

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ask the same thing. I think anybody that's gone

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through this, you say when you know, you know,

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but if you haven't, I would question. But what

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I can say is, and especially with some of the

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studies I've done in psychology, when you have

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traumatic experience like that, that's really

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imprinted in you more so than like a nice healthy

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day at the beach or something like that. You

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know, you remember having a nice day and feeling

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warm and fuzzy. But when something is so traumatic

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as that, like that affects your central nervous

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system, it's imprinted in you. But it's such

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an emotional experience that I think that's what

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is long lasting. I questioned it as well. when

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I found my family many years later, I had talked

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to them quite a bit about different things I

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remember, and that was one thing, but I just,

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for instance, I thought I saw a giant and I fell

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off a horse, but apparently he was a family friend

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and she was six foot five, and I did fall off

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this horse, and that was even younger than that,

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so I do. have recollections of that and I've

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never wavered from what I've said from then till

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now and they were able to tell me yes that those

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are things you remember that's what happened

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and that's what you said at that time. Well and

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I totally believe you it's just it has to be

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like you're saying some kind of a a larger -than

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-life, shall we say, experience for you to remember

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from when you were that young. So it was obviously

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super, super profound. Let's talk more about

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the angel in a minute. I want to ask you some

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more questions about that. But has your family

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since told you anything else that happened, like

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how you were rescued? Were you alive when you

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were rescued? Not that that matters because near

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-death experiences, frankly, can be something

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very close to that, and we call those associated

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experiences, and that's fine too. But tell me

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what you know about what happened. Well, that's

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a great question. So I guess it was a small town,

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so it was broadcast. I mean, it was quite quickly.

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My father heard it, and he was like, oh my God,

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I know that's one of my daughters. And he flew

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down there just as they were loading me into

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the ambulance. Where were you, by the way? So

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the lake was called Lake. Kuchiching and it is

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in Arroyo, Ontario, which is about, I want to

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say three hours north of Toronto in the Muskoka

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region. You may have heard of Muskoka because

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a lot of people vacation there from the U .S.

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Even Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell had a cottage

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up that way. Sorry to interrupt. I just was curious

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where it is. So your father flew up there and

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then what happened? Yeah, so they were loading

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the ambulance and they had to revive me for sure.

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And I guess what happened, I don't know if somebody

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told the lifeguard or ran and grabbed a lifeguard,

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but I was saved by a lifeguard. And I'm wondering

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if that's when I felt the pull. I hope to find

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him someday and say thank you. But yeah, it's

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just a young fellow on duty and he was the one

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who rescued me. Yeah, they did have to revive

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me as far as I know. It's what my father told

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me. Let's get back to that pole thing. I didn't

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really understand that. Did you feel like this

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was a pole that was saving your life or like

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the angel was pulling you like, come on, we're

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headed off to heaven now, young lady. So I was

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being pulled straight. So when she pulled like

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this, I could feel my body move, although she

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wasn't touching me. So as she pulled, I came

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forward with her. So I felt that strong pull

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as if somebody had to grab me. But I wasn't pulled

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up. I was pulled straight. I was like, yeah,

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I'm good to go with you. I was feeling like that

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was just the way, you know, it was going to be.

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And I didn't feel scared anymore. I felt safe.

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So I went with it. So I'm wondering, and I have

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no idea, but, you know, would that be when the

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lifeguard jumped in or because I've had so much.

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psychic experience since then. Just really incredible

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things. I was told later by somebody who was

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trained by Dolores Cannon in quantum healing

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that young Marilyn passed away and I was actually

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a walk -in because they don't want to waste a

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body and because my early life was so difficult

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that somebody stronger who could go through that

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came in, but I don't know for sure. Tell me more

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about the angel. I believe you said she looked

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like a young teen Yeah, so she wasn't quite an

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adult, but she also wasn't a kid like me. She

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was older So I was thinking she was like she

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looked about 14 maybe 12 14. She had very very

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long blonde curly hair, but it was like down

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to her feet like down to her ankles and She was

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wearing a gown and her wings were outstretched

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And the gown wasn't moving with the water or

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wet and neither was her hair. So I thought even

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then that's kind of odd. But and then there was

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a huge glow of like yellowish, bright and the

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closer it was toward the brighter it was. And

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then it kind of mushroomed out into a bright

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yellow. And it didn't even look like we were

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in the water. We were just in this bubble. When

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your daughter explained what she looked like

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to her. Were there specific details such as,

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besides the hair, eye color, what she was wearing,

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things like that, that you recognized as being

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the same? Yeah, she said, Mom, she looked like

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you when you were little. And she really did.

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We looked quite a bit alike, but we didn't look

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exactly alike. So just that light eyes, like

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I don't know if you can see or not, but my eyes

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are really quite light. And so she had those.

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She was fair, just really like, you know, small

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features, very, very feminine. I'm going to ask

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you to speculate here. Do you think she had some

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kind of relation to you and that's why she was

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assigned to you or concerned with you and looked

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like you? Wow, you know what? Nobody's ever said

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that and that makes absolute sense. Yeah, that

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could be the case. I don't know why that never

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occurred to me before because she did look so

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much like me. My mom had... twin girls after

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I was born so I was only a couple years old but

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they passed away so I don't know maybe it could

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be them or or a distant relative like that it

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already passed that'd be a great thing to find

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out wouldn't it yeah I and actually I just did

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a huge family what traced us all the way back

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to King Louis so but I'm gonna meet with some

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of the cousins and see if we can share our pictures,

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so it would be interesting if there was one like

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that. It's under the Empire Loyalist of Canada.

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I don't know if you've heard of that, but the

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early settlers to Canada. So that's the status

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that I was researching for our family. So I should

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look into that. I have a feeling you won't find

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someone with hair all the way down to their feet.

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So don't hang up. Don't get hung up on that one.

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But everything else, that's interesting. Okay.

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Tell me what was going on with your daughter

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when she had an experience with this same angel.

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Yeah, so she was visiting me at that point we

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lived in different cities and she was down for

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like a long weekend visit and where I lived there

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was a lot of action in the basement and I had

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like some pretty profound experiences there and

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I didn't even like to go downstairs like you

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know you see the people they just deeded up the

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stairs. if I had to go down there at all. And

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it was just a particularly difficult time in

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her life too then. And she had fallen asleep

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on the couch and I did have like bedrooms, but

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she had fallen asleep. And then she woke up and

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she was, mom, mom, get out here, get out here.

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across from the couch I had like an open stairway

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that would go downstairs but there was a railing

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and she said that this angel was standing at

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the top of the railing of the stairs looking

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down the stairs and she noticed that my daughter

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saw her and she said don't be afraid I'm here

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for your mom I protect your mom and then I said,

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what did she look like? And she said, like you,

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but only younger, like as a kid. And she said

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the same. She had the long blonde hair, the wings,

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the gown, stuff like that. So I thought that

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was pretty neat. So I'm assuming that's a guardian

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angel. If she's still around, that would have

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been a good 40 years after the original incident.

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If I were you, I'd want to know who that person

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is. I hope you're not going to go crazy with

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that seed I planted now. So not very many people

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have an experience like this as a child. It probably

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made you a little bit different than everybody

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else growing up. In what ways do you think it

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did? So obviously it was a lot more serious.

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I was trying from a very young age to figure

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out, you know, the meaning like, why are we here?

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What's the meaning of life? I had had experience

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previous to that with Jesus that I found out

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later was Jesus. So I knew there was something,

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so I was very, very spiritual at the time. Later

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on when I was, because I was in foster care a

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lot as a kid, when I was finally placed in a

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permanent home, it was a Catholic, we were Catholic,

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and I went to church like every single morning

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and on Saturdays and Sundays I was very serious

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about it. I just wanted to envelop myself in

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it and learn it all, and I wanted to serve God.

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So I went way too steady to be a nun for a bit,

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but they were like, yeah, no, you can serve God's

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blocks of ways, but that just wasn't the right

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fit. But I had had experience after that with

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many near -misses that said to me, Something

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is there and and and i should believe it and

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without even having an early knowledge of religion

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i was very much submerged in it i've never really

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felt like even when i'm in a crowd of people

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always feel like what am i doing here like i

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just always feel kind of different so what the

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gifts that i had since then i because we grew

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up at a time where they said don't talk about

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that that's evil that's bad or they'll think

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you're crazy or a witch or something. So I kind

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of just blocked it as much as I could. And I

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guess in the last, I guess, close to 10 years,

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I've been just letting it flood through and accepting

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it. And now I'm trying to help others with it.

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So I'm creating courses and wrote a book last

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year and newspaper articles. And now you're a

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podcast. And I just want to help people understand

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that they don't have to fear death. It actually

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was very wonderful. I would have went and stayed

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if I could have. What's your book called? It's

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called Keeping the Light On, A Soul's Journey

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of Ascension, and it's under Marilyn Yvette.

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So that is kind of a compilation of stories of

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what little experiences I've had. So instead

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of writing it as a novel, I wrote it almost like

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a diary so that you could see this is when I

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... had an out -of -body experience and went

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to another life or this. I often have people

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come to me when they pass before I even get the

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news or shortly thereafter. So I wrote about

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all those kinds of things so that people can

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feel safe in the knowledge that you're going

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to be okay. And it's actually pretty great over

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there. Are you familiar with the term shared

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death experience? No. Okay. Look it up. This

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is something if you're familiar with the IANDS

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group, I -A -N -D -S, Yes, actually, I just joined

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it. OK. I've been to some of their conferences

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and things and and there are other related experiences

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to near death experiences. One is shared death,

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which can happen in kind of different ways. I'm

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no expert on it. But in some way, you're sharing

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an experience with someone who's died. For example,

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someone a while back that I had on the show was

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telling me that they woke up in the middle of

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the night one night. Grandpa was standing at

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the foot of their bed. They had a short conversation

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She gets up the next morning. Her mom says hey,

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I need to tell you grandpa passed away last night

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Or you could be in the same room as an end -of

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-life doula You may have some of those kinds

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of experiences. They don't happen all the time

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But they can be very interesting a pretty cool

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one that was a shared experience with my grandmother

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that somebody else passed and came to us both

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and had told her, I've already been to see Marilyn.

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So when we went to go break the news because

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it was their daughter and she was like a sister

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to me, she said, I already know. She told me

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that she'd already been to see you and I was

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just floored. Yeah. So those things happen sometimes

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too. This stuff is all related, isn't it? It

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sure is, it's all connected, everything, yeah.

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What do you think is the point? Because I think

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all near -death experiences teach us something.

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What do you think was the point of yours? Well,

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I really think we're here to ascend and learn

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and feel and understand and whether it's karma

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or just your soul going through these experiences

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to ascend. So something like that was... Maybe

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so that I could help others with that, especially

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at such a young age. But it was also in a very

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difficult situation. It was, you know, time of

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hippies when I was born. And it was a very tough

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life for us as children. We went through some

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awful experiences. And so maybe that helped me

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to keep the hope or the flame going. So I myself

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wouldn't give up because, you know, many times

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I felt like this is happening. But I've helped.

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so many people in the same situation my entire

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life, like the nickname Mother Marilyn, is there

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for that reason and maybe that was part of it.

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What advice do you have for someone who may have

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gone through an experience like this, some kind

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of an NDE, and just hasn't been able to talk

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to anybody about it? I think you mentioned you

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didn't really talk about it for a long, long

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time. Was it good to not talk about it? Is it

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better to get it out there and talk about it?

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Yeah, I definitely think it's better to get it

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out. I did talk about it in a personal space

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with people that I felt were like -minded or

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akin to hearing something like that. I didn't.

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talk to people outside or religious people because

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I knew I'd be labeled. But nowadays, I think

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it's far more acceptable. I mean, science has

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proved that there is consciousness that leaves

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our body and we do have science to back that

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up. But what I would recommend if somebody goes

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through this is to seek people out such as yourself

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or myself or anybody who's been through that

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kind of thing so that they're telling that story

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in a space where it's safe and they can be comfortable.

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You know, give them the confidence that what

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what happened to them is probably what they think

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happened. And I think anybody that's been through

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it can tell you there's so many of the same shared

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feelings because it is so difficult to describe

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in that moment how you feel because it's a different,

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it's different than your weightless, you're safe,

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you're warm, you're happy. I think that would

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help them to accept it. this happened and then

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maybe they could go on to help others as well

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in time. Those feelings that you just mentioned,

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do you have any more of them that you remember

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from when you were five years old? How exactly

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did you feel? I guess I can say like safe was

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the number one word. I would use safe, warm,

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love, magnified by millions. Like it's just,

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it's all light and love and it just encompasses

00:22:03.559 --> 00:22:07.130
you. and it wraps you in a cocoon, and that's

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all you feel. And so, of course, you're going

00:22:09.170 --> 00:22:12.130
to say, sure, I'll go with you. It's wonderful.

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It's incredible. You mentioned something about

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having no fear of death. Do you really mean that?

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Yeah. So I've been through cancer several times.

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And I think when you face your own mortality,

00:22:23.589 --> 00:22:26.069
things go into perspective to begin with. But

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the fact that I've been on the brink and have

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many close calls, and things have happened, I

00:22:32.240 --> 00:22:34.539
have zero fear of NASA. Matter of fact, I'm like,

00:22:34.559 --> 00:22:37.059
when I get there, I want to talk to this person

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and I want to do this and I want to do that.

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So it's almost something I'm looking forward

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to in an odd way to say, but yeah, I have zero

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fear at all. Maybe give that angel a big hug.

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Yeah, absolutely. I'm sure it'll be at the bridge.

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Okay, I'm going to give you the last word here,

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Marilyn. And by the way, thank you so much for

00:22:53.640 --> 00:22:57.140
coming on the show, for reaching out to us and

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being willing to tell your story. Last word,

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go ahead and just give any advice that you have.

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You know, you've learned a lot from this experience.

00:23:05.589 --> 00:23:09.049
It changed your life. If somebody out there is

00:23:09.049 --> 00:23:11.849
wondering, is this all real or not? What do you

00:23:11.849 --> 00:23:15.089
have to say to them? I can tell you with absolute

00:23:15.089 --> 00:23:18.630
certainty, it is all real. There's too many experiences

00:23:18.630 --> 00:23:20.950
myself and many other people have had that you

00:23:20.950 --> 00:23:25.359
can say it is. you know, lack of oxygen or whatever

00:23:25.359 --> 00:23:27.960
they previously claimed it was. You know, look

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up the studies, science has backed it up and

00:23:30.019 --> 00:23:32.559
proved it, that you could even see people leaving,

00:23:32.700 --> 00:23:36.680
the soul leaving the body at death in a lot of

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photos and stuff. It's just a different vibration

00:23:39.339 --> 00:23:41.480
than what we're going to have. Like, Earth is

00:23:41.480 --> 00:23:44.400
very heavy, think of the gravity and stuff, and

00:23:44.400 --> 00:23:46.759
there it's light. If you are lighter and you

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are happier in your life and you're doing good

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things with good karma, you'll find yourself

00:23:50.539 --> 00:23:52.859
closer there and start to experience these kinds

00:23:52.859 --> 00:23:54.980
of things. But there's absolutely nothing to

00:23:54.980 --> 00:23:58.000
fear as long as, you know, you haven't been somebody

00:23:58.000 --> 00:24:00.339
like Adolf Hitler. There should be no reason

00:24:00.339 --> 00:24:02.700
why he won't experience that. People that have

00:24:02.700 --> 00:24:05.299
gone before you are there. They're waiting for

00:24:05.299 --> 00:24:07.480
you. They're very happy in a different venue.

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I could talk about what I've seen there other

00:24:10.200 --> 00:24:13.339
times. Yeah, it's going to be OK. Better than

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OK or just OK? Oh, absolutely fantastic. Fabulous.

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All right. Thanks a lot, Marilyn. Thanks for

00:24:19.339 --> 00:24:24.400
having me. Thanks again for listening and sharing

00:24:24.400 --> 00:24:26.680
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